Hi Thanks for writing, I just found your comment as I am still finding my way around here , your hubby passed 1 day before mine I see, , sorry for you loss too, sorry for all of us. 7 weeks today, time has never moved so slowly and so fast at the same time. <3 to us all <3
You wrote a status update just now: "Knowing there's nothing in my future that will give me the happiness of my past is hard to accept."
I'm sending you a giant hug, but I really want to start an argument with you about this statement because there are SO MANY reasons it is ABSOLUTELY FALSE. You might FEEL that way right now, but you DO NOT KNOW IT. You should NOT accept that only sadness is head. AND? You WILL experience the happiness of the future. We're all here to give you that hope, to let you see that even if you can't imagine it right now, you WILL make it. Being here shows that you are dedicated to the path upward.
It's not easy, but you can slog through, or fight, or build a new way, or draw your own future, or whatever metaphor works for you.
Please accept my hug along with my argument. I know I am a pain. But truly, you are loved! XOXO
Just 3 weeks ... oh my ... tears are to be expected at this most painful time. I've read your blog and appreciate your raw honesty. I hope you're able to find some help here. I'm 5 months out and have found it very helpful to connect with others who 'get it'.
I also have a blog (don't we all?) and get much comfort in writing there.