"Thank you Carolynne, for the welcome. I look forward to having a place to go where people will understand where I'm at in grieving the loss of my husband."
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Who's going to Camp in August??
Started this discussion. Last reply by Trifectagirl Aug 9, 2012. 172 Replies 1 Like
I had such an amazing experience at Camp East, I HAVE to do it again!! If you're going, are you going early? Staying late? Traveling with anyone?Continue
Tags: Camp Widow 2012, Camp Widow West, Camp Widow
Who are you - when you are alone??
Started this discussion. Last reply by Niki Jan 14, 2012. 19 Replies 0 Likes
My shrink told me today that although she understands it is not the reality I want, the reality IS that my handsome hubby is no longer with me. I am alone. So, she says, I need to examine who I am…Continue
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carolynne commented on Mariposa's blog post Second Father's Day Without Him
"Haunting and lovely, Mariposa. (((hugs)))"
carolynne commented on Supa Dupa Fresh's group Widowed in 2011
"Mariposa and Cristina, lovely poetry....thank you for sharing."
carolynne liked Dawn- Clouds Mum's blog post Grief
carolynne commented on Aeleice's blog post His Last Days
"(((Aeleice))) I fell asleep snuggled up to Rod and woke to find him the same. My heart goes out to you."
princess57 left a comment for carolynne
"thanks for giving me a place for my coping and understanding at a better level of how I feel sometime on a daily basis where others may not be as understanding of my private pain. I would have given anything to be near him at the time of his…"
carolynne commented on Tomsgirl's blog post When life gives you lemons
"what an opportunity. I see both sides of the coin, for certain. It presents a wonderful chance to prepare and enlighten others and potentially save lives. On the other hand, it could mean reliving your painful loss each time you spoke.Whatever you…"
carolynne commented on Paul R's blog post The Perfect Grief Poem
"Oh how many countless times I just got up and walked out and away. I"m sure people think I am completely mad. Sometimes I think it would be nice to wear a widow's veil, dress in black, all the supposed symbols of widowhood, just so people…"
carolynne commented on Paul R's blog post The Grief Poem
"So very true. I especially related to this: Sometimes we want to hold that grief close and other times push it away. We love the memories that grief brings back to us, but don’t want to be reminded of our loss. We need grief to…"
carolynne commented on liz143's blog post "Fiesty slice of life" ... some needed changes
"(((Liz))) I'm so glad to hear this! That is exactly what about this site saved my life....the shared weeps, yes, but the howling laughter and the feistiness!! Maybe we'll have to reinstitute Red Solo Cup nights, ay yi yi!!!! Peace, my…"
Kathleen left a comment for carolynne
"Hi Carolynne
It's only been 2weeks. I'm still foggy and everything seems like a weird nightmare and I can't wake up...."
carolynne commented on Lori's blog post The unraveling of a life...
"(((Lori))) Absolutely beautiful, thank you for sharing."
carolynne commented on Supa Dupa Fresh's group Widowed in 2011
"(((Turkeygirl))) I'm so very sorry. Your circumstances sound just so traumatic. Keeping you and your daughter in my thoughts."
carolynne commented on Supa Dupa Fresh's group Widowed in 2011
"Paula, sometimes it just seems so unfair. I'm so sorry. Your husband passed the day after mine. (((hugs)))"
carolynne replied to Wendy's discussion Engaged and Thrilled...but not everyone is happy for me
"Agree with the others. Your sister will come around. I think she probably has a LOT of mixed emotions....missing Brian, jealousy over your having found love again while she has not. Don't worry about her...she will come out okay and so will the…"
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Breathless
Posted on June 2, 2013 at 10:32pm 4 Comments 0 Likes
It still takes my breath away when I log onto the site and see my own pictures of Rod and I. When I look at them at home, or on Facebook, of course I miss him and cry and wish he were still here. But seeing them on Widowed Village is always a reality check of sorts for me....wow, that really happened. He really died. He really died almost two years ago and I will never see his face again. It's one of those heart punches that knocks the wind out of you and leaves you gasping for air. And they…
Continue Counting the beats
Posted on May 28, 2013 at 9:55pm 2 Comments 0 Likes
This is not mine....but i was just bemoaning how at 23 months (yes, today, not that I'm counting)....I'm still counting. not hours anymore, or days, or even weeks, but still months. And next month it will be 2 years and that in some way terrifies me...
Anyway, i was thinking of how we always seem to be counting and it reminded me of a line in this poem,"counting the slow heart beats....the bleeding to death of time in slow heart beats...."
So, here it is.…
Continue SSLF Survey
Posted on May 6, 2013 at 10:36am 13 Comments 0 Likes
I am having a rare quiet day at work , and decided to take a few minutes to complete the SSLF survey, and I had to walk out of my office in tears. Just admitting some of these things in writing, so to speak...that I'm almost two years out and still so depressed, still contemplating suicide, still not seeing much of a life ahead...is so distressing. It has to get better....doesn't it???
Wherever you go, there you are ...
Posted on November 11, 2012 at 11:08am 12 Comments 6 Likes
Wherever you go, THERE you are. ~ Confucius
I always looked at this familiar phrase differently than most. To me, it always meant that we should live in the moment. Wherever you go, there you are....no regrets, no looking back, no worrying about the future; just fully present in what we are engaging in…
Comment Wall (117 comments)
- At 9:58pm on June 14, 2013,
grandmajo said… Thank you Carolynne, for the welcome. I look forward to having a place to go where people will understand where I'm at in grieving the loss of my husband.
- At 8:14am on June 7, 2013,
princess57 said… thanks for giving me a place for my coping and understanding at a better level of how I feel sometime on a daily basis where others may not be as understanding of my private pain. I would have given anything to be near him at the time of his death but, he always found ways to protect me and keep us in our private world apart from the others.
- At 9:39pm on June 6, 2013,
Kathleen said… - Hi Carolynne
It's only been 2weeks. I'm still foggy and everything seems like a weird nightmare and I can't wake up....
- At 10:16am on March 24, 2013,
Eileen said… - Hi Carolynne,
Thank you so much for the birthday wishes. I really appreciate your thoughtfulness.
I hope that you are doing well.
Best
Eileen
- At 5:17am on November 13, 2012,
celestia (Suzanne) said… thanks for the pic of the lanterns. very cool. :)
- At 12:07am on August 27, 2012,
SpiritWalker said… Hi again..just read thru all your blogs..and the depth you share is wonderful. There are two that are so similar to my experiences I find them eerie. The way my Cathie passed and the one about the boots....Cathie passed in her sleep also and I couldn't move her shoes for a very long time. I have posted a blog about those shoes over on my profile. I just wanted to let you know, it does get better. Hang in and keep moving...Cathie has been gone 4 years and 3 months...It does get better. There's a light at the end of this tunnel...I would also like to invite you to visit a website I created after she passed. www.lesbianwidowsupport.com Alot of my story is there take care...Hugs
- At 11:49pm on August 26, 2012, SpiritWalker said…
For those that will be attending the Blue Corn Moon..theres a vid on my profile..Colors of the wind....You may want to give it a listen..It says it all for me....Thanks Carolynne for postin the event..never would have thought of it...Hugs Sweet thing
- At 1:09pm on June 15, 2012,
Suz said… Carolynne,
I was mostly off yesterday due to a migraine, but i thought of you yesterday and hope you are doing better. And you are NOT a "drama queen."
Hugs,
Suz
- At 11:13pm on May 30, 2012,
Cristina said… Carolynne, Your poem just staggered me.
You spoke as if from inside my own heart
My heart is with you, you are so not alone, I wish you the best
I know this pain
bless you, sister in sorrow
thank you for speaking it for me, too
- At 9:27pm on May 28, 2012, Suz said…
Hugs to you, too, Carolynne,
Happy to be your friend!
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