I'd be honored to be your friend. I'm sorry for your loss. If you can locate a local Grief Group, and attend their meetings I believe you will find support there. Generally those meetings are twice a month and in between meetings, you will find support here by reading the many postings, and by participating in the chat room. I look forward to hearing from you when you are up to it. I went to your profile and noticed the name of the town that you reside in - Reisterstown, MD. My first duty station was NAVCOMSTAWASH, Washington DC. It was located in Cheltenham MD, just outside the back gate of Andrews AFB. I used to take my weekends in Greece NY and traveled the beltway around DC then B&W Parkway to the Baltimore beltway and then straight up 15 through PA & NY. I would leave after work at 0830 and be home in time to have showered and be sitting at the dinner table when my parents got home. I remember passing the signs for Reisterstown and wondered about it and what seemed an odd name.
Hi. You used to live in Portland Maine? I used to live in Baltimore MD (& Pikesville also). Barb & I moved to Maine in 2002 to escape city life. Moving to Maine was to be our "dream come true", but sadly, it wasn't. Life got much harder for the both of us in Maine. Harder for me at first, but then harder for her when she came down with cancer in 2010. All my friends were in Baltimore, and in Maine my work kept me too busy to make new friends, so now I have no one to turn to except God. Try to take some solace in having friends here that you can turn to. Listening to favorite tunes from by-gone days can be both nice (in bringing back memories of when you were younger and the two of you were together), and also not-so-nice (in bringing back memories of when you were younger and the two of you were together). This season of a widow or widowers life is not going to be sweetness and sunshine. But eating the dry crusty bread of widowhood can be pleasant in a bittersweet way... if we walk with God. I do still find some solace in reading God's word, and reminding myself that God loves me, and trusting that Barb is with God now. Ed
The first 6 month were "hell" for me. I didn't know if I was on foot or horseback. Acted kind of crazy and reached out to people I didn't even know. They must have thought I was a nut case. Still not used to being without her.
I am in the same boat as you. Lost my beloved Paul on january 11. I went to the 2016 group but like you, found noone there. I am afraid to be alone too, my parents are basically staying with me now. I am 44 and i know the financial difficulties too. I am crying, weeping so much, everything is a reminder. I am trying to keep our business running and work for about 2 hours a day on that, but most of my day is in bed, resting, crying and feeling horrific
So sorry for the reason that you’re here but glad you’ve joined us. You’ll find insight, understanding and support here at Widowed Village. We’re traveling the same road together some further down the road than others. Join a group when you’re ready to get better connected. Participate in a forum and/or chat anytime. If you have questions, feel free to ask. There is always someone around willing to help. Below is a link that you might find helpful as a new member.