Has anyone been to any retreats in the last few years that were especially meaningful and good???? I know there is Camp Widow, but I'm wondering if anyone has any organization they can recommend.…Continue
I lost my husband, Edd, in March 2012. He fought a long battle with colon cancer. He was only 57 years old. I took care of him almost 4 years as he endured surgeries, infections, chemo, radiation, painful side effects... He died looking into my eyes. Still working through the hurt and PTSD that lingers. Losing him has been painful in the extreme....missing him continues. His strength and courage amazed and inspired me.... but also broke my heart. Still figuring out how to put it back together again. Love never dies....
We all keep things that are important to us. I have date books and calendars that I've saved from several years back. I have emails from over ten years ago. It was interesting when going through my mom's things after she passed away that she had quite a few past years' calendars too. Part of it for me is not trusting my memory and wanting to ensure some events, thoughts and dates aren't lost forever.
But today I threw away a whole lot …. papers and notebooks that were…Continue
Today I did it again. I took the road well traveled. The I-35 corridor between Austin and San Antonio.
The first time we met he came from Austin down this road. I traveled the same highway up from San Antonio and we met in between. I don't know if I believe in love at first sight, but I knew he was a keeper and I wanted to make him happy. It was the beginning of many… plenty, numerous, hundreds … of identical trips. All so we could see each other. He'd leave…Continue
I feel stuck... and yet restless. There is a part of me that wants to go out and get busy and be more productive and then there is that other part that wants to protect myself. Stay cocooned and surround myself with peace and tranquility. The uncomfortable truth is that I feel I sacrificed enough. I've given up enough. I've given away enough of myself over my lifetime. And I'm tired of giving myself away.
Before meeting Edd I gave myself away in a 20-year marriage that…Continue