"I know Kocicka. My Gran raised me until I was 4. We are very close and she has some health issues. I know her time is coming and I'm trying to 'prepare' myself for that, as if that's possible. The dream messed with me. Its stuck…"
"I had a dream about Jon this morning. Laying in bed, being lazy, kind of dozing in and out, I had this dream. In the dream I didn't see his face, just him from the knees down, which is weird. He was wearing his favorite khaki shorts and no…"
"Abby, I lost my husband to an aneurism as well. He was 34. Reading your intro, I know those feelings to well. I too miss my life with him. This is a wonderful site, and I'm sure you will find the support you need. Its nice to just know your not…"
"I made it through today. I knew that I would on some level, but wasn't sure how it would go. I took off from work today, just because I was afraid if it went badly I would be a blubbering sap there, and I didn't want that. I figured if it…"
"Wednesday will be one year since he died. Its all I can think about. I know that its just a day, like any other, but sadder. All day today I've tried so hard to keep it together, to not think about where I was a year ago. Sitting in neuro icu,…"
It doesn't matter how long you have to prepare yourself and say good bye, its just never enough is it? My husband 'lived' for 8 days in the neuro ICU. The first 5 days I prayed so hard, despite what the dr said that he would…"
"Hi, I'm Amanda aka 'Laska'. My husband Jon died April 20, 2010. He was 35. He had a massive anurism, which triggered a stroke and massive heart attack. He was in Neuro ICU on life support for 8 days. Letting him go was the hardest…"
"Jon passed away April 20 2010. We were together 9 years and married for 4 of those. Jon suffered from depression and was so stubborn that he wouldn't get help for it. I'm a very blunt person, and there were many occasions when I tried to…"
"My story is similar Lisa. Jon and I were seperated at the time he died. For us there were no children and I was living in VA and he is CT. I remember when I had to go back, as we were still legally married, how everyone would say 'well we knew…"
"I realize the build up to the 20th is probably worse than the actual say will be. That is also my dad's birthday. Because Jon is buried in CT and I am in VA its not as if I can go to the cemetary. I'm not sure what I will do that day.…"
"You know its very strange how when someone dies, they become a 'saint'. For months after Jon died everyone kept remembering the good things or times. I don't think this is a bad thing, but its easy to elevate the dead person to an…"