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7 years ago Brian and I decided to take every Thursday during the summer and do something fun with our kids.  One Thursday we decided to take them to Governor Dodge State Park for the day.  We visited a waterfall and then spent the day playing at the beach.  We had a picnic lunch.  I remember as we were pulling into the park we were talking about putting in an offer on a bigger house.  I was insisting....he was resisting....finally he sighed and said "Fine, we will put an offer in, but if I…

By the time I am done writing this, I am pretty sure that I will feel as though I am standing in front of the world naked. But this is an important one. Not only for me to have this chance to admit that I am interested in dating, but also to help other widows know that IT IS OK to want to do this. My husband died, I didn't. I have had a significant loss, but I still have a life to live, and I want to spend it with someone that makes me happy. I don't know who or where he is, but he is out…

I am not in this grieving thing alone. I have these four beautiful kids that all have their dad's dark brown eyes surrounded by his long, dark eyelashes, that are right here with me in this grief. They miss him terribly, and as time goes on they miss him more. They have a range of emotions depending on the day, the kid and the moment.

My oldest, who is 12, is angry. She is mad that Brian is dead. She is even mad at him because he died and left her. She takes out her anger on the…

I made it! I escaped from Widow Island! I swam like crazy and made it to the main land. How did this happen? There were a few things that I know contributed to my escape. One day I woke up and as I sat on my couch crying I realized that if I had a choice, I would rather be with Brian than with my kids. That was a very painful realization. Let me qualify this....I am not saying that I wanted to die or was in any way suicidal...I was (am) NOT. I just missed Brian SO much, so desperately, that…