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mom'staxi
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mom'staxi replied to Riley's discussion just joined this group in the group Long-Term Illness
"Medication can totally help when things get overwhelming.  I hope you don't overwhelm yourself with tasks and obligations.  I burned myself out doing the same and ended a lifelong commitment to girl scouting and involvement with my…"
Jul 9
mom'staxi replied to Riley's discussion just joined this group in the group Long-Term Illness
"Riley and Steve, I so appreciate your stories and the both remind me of part of my own.  My husband was diagnosed when he was 38.  He had a little bleeding so the doctor did a colonoscopy finding a polyp about a centimeter big.  He…"
Jul 9
mom'staxi replied to Riley's discussion just joined this group in the group Long-Term Illness
"Too true.  I feel like I have to take something so hard and try to give some comfort to others in the knowledge of commonality in our pain, our sadness, and our devotion to those we have lost."
Jul 7
mom'staxi replied to Riley's discussion just joined this group in the group Long-Term Illness
"I'm so sorry. You know there are so many stories, different in the detail but so much the same.  It is so hard in the moment to know the right thing.   Our surgeon went in six times to help my husband with all the complications of his…"
Jul 7
SweetMelissa2007 commented on mom'staxi's blog post No place to fit
"It might sound strange when I say you are barely 5 years out ...As much as widows further out try to spare the reality of the length of grief, there are times it needs to be revealed. When I became widowed, it was easy to find lots of Web info…"
Apr 13
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No place to fit

Don't really seem to fit here anymore.  I am still looking for counseling to get my head straight and maybe that is the only way it will be.  It is just ironic that after I lay out the whole history of what has happened over the last say 10+ years it feels like the therapists don't believe me or are just desensitized.  As much as I have tried to reinvent myself, I am still haunted by the past, the decisions I had to make, and all that happened between then and now.  The new theory is trauma…See More
Apr 12
mom'staxi commented on Soaring Spirits's group Born in the 60s
"You have to live your life and find some joy and peace. My husband and I worked so hard and planned for big things in the future. What happens when those things don't get to happen. If your kids are safe with backup resources to help with…"
Feb 29, 2016
mom'staxi commented on Soaring Spirits's group Born in the 60s
"Oh my gosh, Napavalleygirl, are you my twin. It is like I'm reading my story. We totally plan to just do a destination wedding, which I have decided will no longer include my two girls, 14 & 18, or my parents. They have been too…"
Feb 29, 2016
mom'staxi commented on Soaring Spirits's group Born in the 60s
"Napavalleygirl, thanks, I think all moms turn into mom taxis though :). You see through to my continued challenge. I live two lives due to break down with my oldest and my fiancee. Initially my daughter said she had no room for anyone else and put…"
Feb 28, 2016
mom'staxi commented on Soaring Spirits's group Born in the 60s
"Good for you Mary H. First life without the person I adored felt like an eternity but than I starting feeling that life is too short to not make the most of your time. Our spouses wouldn't want us to hide away and mourn forever. They would want…"
Feb 27, 2016
mom'staxi commented on Soaring Spirits's group Born in the 60s
"Mary H, I don't think there is any equation to help us get through this terribly heart wrenching experience that we all share. My situation was complicated. I had two kids, a family furniture business to manage and a husband in and out of the…"
Feb 26, 2016
mom'staxi commented on Soaring Spirits's group Born in the 60s
"I'm sorry to hear your experience. I too made it work and trouble shot for my husband's health to keep him going. The guilt and disgust with yourself is something that is impossible to erase or explain to others. My husband passed in 2011…"
Feb 25, 2016
mom'staxi commented on Soaring Spirits's group Long-term illness
"Rook, so sorry about you wife, I totally feel for you.  I walked that same path for so long.   Funny, my husband just turned 44 this year...and my daughter is 10 too.  We only made it to our 17th anniversary though but…"
Sep 14, 2011
mom'staxi commented on Soaring Spirits's group Long-term illness
"((HUGS)) to you Tammy S.  though our stories are not quite the same, parts feel the same and I feel your struggles.  My DH was diagnosed in 2005 with Stage III Colon Cancer.  (We fell in the anything that could go wrong…"
Sep 13, 2011
mom'staxi commented on Soaring Spirits's group Widowed in 2011
"I "coped" with it all (sort of) as I always do in crisis mode and got through it so very thankful that we didn't get more damage. The problem is it isn't ending, nothing seems to be getting resolved or getting fixed.  I…"
Sep 13, 2011
mom'staxi commented on Soaring Spirits's group Widowed in 2011
"10 weeks now and it seems like it only gets harder.  I had so much hope a month ago that I can't find now.  Very hard to imagine it will get better.  I hate this mind set I am in right now and yet I can't shake it off no…"
Sep 12, 2011

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Posted on April 12, 2017 at 5:00pm 1 Comment

Don't really seem to fit here anymore.  I am still looking for counseling to get my head straight and maybe that is the only way it will be.  It is just ironic that after I lay out the whole history of what has happened over the last say 10+ years it feels like the therapists don't believe me or are just desensitized.  As much as I have tried to reinvent myself, I am still haunted by the past, the decisions I had to make, and all that happened between then and now.  The new theory is trauma…

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At 9:53am on July 28, 2011, Lisa (lost) Lamb said…

So sorry for your loss. I know this is the last place anyone wants to belong...but now that we do we can comfort each other along the way.So glad you found us

 

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At 9:19pm on July 27, 2011, Dianne in Nevada said…
So pleased you found us, Pam. Take a look around and join our conversations - in the Groups, Forums and chat room. You'll find wonderful support here.
At 4:06pm on July 27, 2011, Alive & Mortal said…
Welcome. I am happy that you are here. We really need each other. I hope you find the strength and peace that you deserve as you tell us your story and read ours.
 
 
 

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