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I don’t want to die.
I want very much to live.
You need to understand this, in order to read this post.
I WANT TO LIVE.
I want a HAPPY, FULL life.
So… now that you understand that… lets talk about what’s going on.
I want to hurt myself.
I think about taking a blade and cutting across the skin, drawing blood, and creating an intense pain.
I think about this frequently.
Usually while I’m fighting tears.
Why? you ask. Never…Continue
People tell me I'm a good writer.
People tell me I'm a compelling writer.
People tell me that I write in such a way that my words affect them.
So why can't I express fully, in a way that makes me feel that *I* understand, how much I hurt and how incredibly devastating it is to be a widow?
I look through thesaurus entries:
Devastated: anguised, cheerless, dejcected, depressed, despairing, distressed, down, heartbroken, heartsick,…Continue
Had some moments. Had some tears. Had some sad points.
But I received some beautiful flowers, and got to spend an evening with a friend.
Overall - aside from missing Mark enormously, it was a good day.
I'd have rather had him though. :(