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Yesterday was my Tony's 61st birthday. We always lived ( and looked) like we were much younger than our age, so if he was here we might have gone for a hard hike somewhere, then maybe out to dinner…Continue
Even after 19 months, I feel like I am just 'passing time' until the end of my life comes. One lousy day after another. I cannot believe how fast the days go by. A week goes by like nothing! I spend…Continue
Life decided to crap on me again on Thursday. I feel something in my car when I turn the steering wheel, so I stopped where I had the snow tires put on last week. He told me that something very serious is about to happen to one of my REAR wheels (what I feel is in the front), and the work he wants to do will cost $300+. My brother-in-law doesn't believe him and thinks the guy is trying to sham me. My BIL will take the car next week to check it out himself.
When I got home…Continue
I just can't believe that today is the second anniversary of Tony's death. I am amazed that it has been this long and amazed that I have made it through so far.
In a way I feel bad - guilty - that I do not exactly remember the date at the end of October 2009 when he left for his trip with his friend. I should remember it because it was the last time we were together. I had butterflies in my stomach on the way to his friend's house and was not "right" the entire day. This is true, I am…Continue
I turned 60 yesterday, and it was no different than turning 59. Actually, it was not as good. I didn't expect a party, but I thought this birthday might receive a little more attention than it got. If my brother-in-law and his wife had not treated me to dinner, I would have had dinner home alone. I am trying to feel grateful and appreciative that they bought me dinner; I am trying not to be selfish, but I can't help feeling a little let down. They didn't even know I am 60; not like they have…Continue
How do we stop crying when we can't stop? I went to my in-laws yesterday because I did not want to be alone when Irene hit here. To make this long story short, as it turns out I could have stayed home and I would have been fine.
I found out about 3:00 today that I had power at my house, so I started out for home. I could not go the regular route because of flooding, so I had to find an alternate route. My regular route is 16 miles, but I ended up driving maybe 40.
I left their…Continue