"Today is his birthday. He would be 74 years if this terrible glioblastoma had not taken him away from us.Sorry, I had to call this out loud.I have just returned from the hospital. I am well taken care of. But what a joy it would have been today with…"
"A person is very strange. In the last few months I have often thought: "Let me leave, I can not do without my love". And when I broke my hip on last Tuesday, I just felt: I hope they can do something for me, because I do not want to die…"
If you want to move, it is very important to consider the following: you can not do without close friends and acquaintances. Last Tuesday, I ended up unexpectedly at the hospital. I broke my hip replacement.Without all the kind help I…"
"This song reminds me of our beautiful time together. Unfortunately, it is now over. Sometimes I think I can continue with this reality. Nothing is less true. The Christmas preparations in the houses around make me so angry. How can people decorate…"
"I had a "lousy" experience. I was walking with some good friends in the park and before me I saw a man who looked just as my husband. From behind, he had the same hair, the same jacket, the same wheelchair. I knew it…"
"The holidays, I am panicking for all of them. The first Christmas Trees appear in the streets here. I hate to see it.
How can they be there when my husband is no longer here? Last days are hell indeed. Maybe because of the weather. I am…"
"In fact I am panicking about the holidays. I will not be alone then. My grandchildren already made plans to join me on Christmas eve. They did that themselves, I didn't ask for it. And on Christmas day, the tradition will be followed. The…"
Suzan, Melissa, Shelley, LP, Carlady, and John and everyone of this community, your friendship makes this sad time so much more bearable.
So many bright spots in this dark tunnel. Thanks to all of you."
"Coming back this afternoon from a wedding reception, I feel completely mixed up and sad. Although most people there knew my husband very well, they avoided any conversation about him. I don't talk about my husband all the time. But I…"
"Also in Belgium a sunny mild Autumn day. And I also spend this afternoon in the garden. I started tidying up and cleaned the flower pots. But it is with a broken heart, because only last year, he still did this himself. I…"
This is so true. We too are the first in our circle of friends who have been torn apart. Especially in a larger group you do not feel at home anymore. You feel like nobody knows about the pain you are in. Nobody can't even…"
I am so sorry for your loss. Already loosing your husband is so difficult to bear. And than the heartless disease of Alzheimer. How strong a person must be to endure all of this.
I know about the anticipatory grief. …"
"At almost 6 months, I thought it would be good to start to clean up the shed. My husband was a collector of all technical stuff. And mostly of car parts, new or old. That shed was filled to the roof.
For me and our kids, this…"
Melanoma started inside. Diagnosed Dec after wierd bruises then thought after surgery snd meds and radiation was fighting it but then started getting weaker and weaker than went to ER 2 hrs later had severe seizures and did not respond they said to wait 24 hrs but didn’t make it. COR and all meadures tried. Absolutely a nightmare that haunts me daily
I truly appreciate you responding. You are the first one to comment. My husband fought cancer too but only for 6 months . Its all too fast and horrible. He was the love of my life of course. We only had 14 years it just wasn’t enough. Seems like if in stage 4 and mets to brain the treatment s just aren’t good enough. But I don’t know if it was his time it was his time but I will never understand it. It’s definitely shaken any faith I had. Pretty much trying to make it 5 minutes at a time.
Welcome to Widville, riet. I am truly sorry for your loss, and hope you find caring support and friendship here. Here's the best place to start: Need help using the site? Click the "help" link at the top of page. You can join the Groups that fit you to connect to others with similar experiences. Share your story. And the "chat room" is open 24/7. Take a look at our Forum discussions where you'll find meaningful conversations taking place. I look forward to getting to know you here in Widville. Take care of yourself.