Welcome Wished4more. This is a group none of us ever wanted to locate, let alone find reason to join. Nonetheless here we are. You are now starting on a neverending journey into widow(er)(hood). I wish I could tell you the pain goes away, but it doesn't. Over time, however, the pain does abate. We all have our better moments from time to time but, somehow, memories always seem to flood back sending us reeling. Almost 2 years out now, I describe it as a roller coast ride. At first the ride is steep highs and lows of breathtaking emotional turmoil. Over time, the ride seems to even out a little into ever lessening bumps and hillocks. I guess I will never feel the emotional safety of level ground again?
Welcome Wished4more: I'm sorry for your loss but I'm glad you found your way to this site. I hope you will find the same comfort and understanding here at Widowed Village that I have. In the beginning I just read the blogs and posts and lurked in chat.You can join the Groups that fit you to connect to others with similar experiences. Post and join in chat when you feel comfortable. It is nice to be among people who "Get It"