"I have had many of the same feelings, maybe not about therapy, but I did think I should hurt. Its part of survivors guilt I think. Just wanted to let you know you are not alone. I have not done EMDR, but think I will at some point in the…"
"I wrote a lot of his sayings down on post it notes all over the house. I write them down as they pop into my head. The one I think about a lot is, he would say "hind site is 20/20", that one burns a lot. "
"Thanks for the reply HWD and Nardy. You are probably right Nardy about some amount of depression. So far I have managed to stay away from taking meds, I do take some naturopathic stuff for anxiety and sleep problems. Does the medication help you…"
"I have not written anything in a long time, but I am always reading. So in 11 days it will be 2 1/2 years since I have been living in this hell. I am doing so much better then I was at the beginning, I can function so much better. The pain is…"
I spread Tom's ashes in the first year of his passing. It was very hard, but I am very glad that I did it. I recommend going with someone that you are close with, so they could be there for moral support. I had my sister with me and…"
it is absolutely normal what you are feeling. I have the same issues, and know of many, many other widows that go through the same anxiety and irrational fears. I don't have any advice on how to cope with it though. Just part of…"
"SM I see myself in the same place 8 years from now, with Tom's things all around me. I do not see why I would want to get rid of them. I could fill the house with all sorts of things, but none of that would have the same value to me as his…"
"I don't know if its healthy or not, but I have heard (am one) of a lot of people that have kept things for years. So everything you are saying sounds normal to me. It has been 2 + years for me and I still have not moved his stuff from the…"
Pegg's Cove is a beautiful place. Tom and I where in Halifax a week before he passed. It was one of the last places we saw together. Now my treasured memories. It is a very special place for me too. Hugs."
"My mind and heart are with the people who have been affected by the horrific incident in Los Vegas. For so many families the world has become an unimaginably horrific place. Unfortunate we have new members of the club that no one wants to join."
"I have looked into what I could get back and no luck really. I can go through a history recover to see what more I can get from Tom's phone, but Im putting it off. I think having the hope that I will be able to recover some more stuff is worth…"
"I also lost his voicemail. In the middle of widow fog, I forgot to pay his phone bill (which I did for almost a year after he was gone) and they turned it off. I was so devastated. I hold on to all these things left behind so dearly. Its so finite…"
I also always thought we had time, just have to get finances in order first. What a joke that was. I would give anything to see how happy he would have been to hold his own baby. I dont know if widows/ers with kids feel the same. I…"
"Froggie, I do the same with the car. Its the first one we bought together. Its a manual and Tom spent many patient hours teaching me to drive it. It was also our first road trip together. I cant drive now. I just go to sit in the car and cry. I feel…"
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