It's been 2 years and 8 months sense I sat next to my husbands bed caring for him until he passed away in our home from lung cancer. Now here I am again, I sit next to my Dad's bed in the same room in my house caring for him. He has leukemia and will not be with me much longer. I wouldn't want it any other way because I love them both with all of my heart. But some days I really wonder how much emotional turmoil one mind can take before it breaks. Sense I lost my husband my Dad has been…Continue
My roses: Darling Wes how are you my beloved?
I wanted to find the words to the Richard Tauber song
“You are my heart’s delight and where you are I want to be.”
I have missed you so much today….
Wes: My beloved Darling I am glad to hear you today and I hear
your words of love you say each day to me. But this is special
because I can reply to you as you…Continue
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I almost never dream of things going on in my life, like 1 in 50. Last night she was so real. I couldn't enjoy her as I was depressed and I didn't know why. She was trying to get me to go to some thing in L.A. and I couldn't get over how upset I was. I couldn't wake myself up. I felt like it has to be a dream. I remembered she died and all that came with it but here she was. Her death must have been the bad dream. We've all had dreams that were so very real. My 'very real' dreams I…Continue
The love of my love, my first love, and husband, Bob, passed away on Saturday morning. I am at a loss on how to cope. I've never had to experience death or pain like this before. I was searching online for tips on what to do, how to grieve, etc and came across this board.
Our story - we met over 7 years ago when I was newly moved to Maui and attended a party. I didn't know anyone but wanted to get involved in a community of like-minded individuals and met Bob. I was attracted to…
'I just reread at my blog post from July of 2012. and you know what? I feel exactly the same way now. '.
I try to share some of my story whenever I get a chance. In our society we don’t like to talk about death. I hope to make at least a small dent in that.
And in sharing my story I have been able to help others along the way, people that I have met who have a friend or a relative who recently lost a spouse. I try to give them ideas of how they might be able to help. I also pass on resources for them to share with their friend or relative.
Added by Mac on January 24, 2014 at 3:45pm — No Comments
I went to a funeral today of an old friend from my teen years. She was the grown up daughter of the neighbours next door. She was an air hostess, which I considered a glamorous job and I'm betting I shadowed her more than she would have liked when she was home visiting her parents for a few weeks at a time. She went on to become a nurse, had two marriages and over the years we sort of kept in touch. Today I met…Continue
I know most of my blogs are what I have been through and what I have learned but this one is just a little different and it is about someone that is still alive.
In 2010 when my Husband Steve had his accident he was in STICU for 2 weeks, well the very first day I was at the hospital I met a lady and her husband was in the same unit, right across from my husband. They had both been in motorcycle accidents and…Continue
Back when I worked at "Wrinkle City" (A/K/A the retirement community), our security manager had a skewed opinion about the health of the residents: if they didn't die around the New Year, they would be good until summer. And statistics say his opinion is correct-January IS the month when most people die-followed by December. Which is probably why my social calendar has been filled recently with more wakes than parties. These wakes are stressing me out, and it has nothing to do with who is in…Continue
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Wedding rings have been on my mind recently. Here is what I wrote on my personal blog.
I can't take off my wedding rings. I know I don't have to. I can't take them off. I loved and love these rings. I loved them when I first saw them when we went engagement ring shopping together. I wanted a proper engagement ring, another case of magical thinking that if I had a traditional ring it could protect us against divorce. (Again, never considering the possibility of death.) We went to…Continue
Just had a nasty email from one of my adult children, we've had an uneasy relationship for some time, now for some reason that has come to a head. Don't you just hate those times? Can't see what I can do about it, everything is true from one perspective if not the unadulterated truth, no love or compassion from this one though. That hurts me, after all if your family can't support you who will? Maybe the signs have been there for a while and I…Continue
I consider myself a pretty even tempered individual, not prone to angry outbursts. But tonight I think I reached my limit. I posted a status update on Facebook that I borrowed from one of my widowed friends. This is what it said:
"I feel very sad tonight ... Sometimes I don't know who I'm most in mourning for, Matthew or the person I used to be when I was…Continue
In the past few weeks, I have:
Spoken with authority to a tax attorney and realtor to help someone out
Cooked a gourmet dinner for 25 people
Pushed a woman's car out of a busy intersection
Bought a snow blower after negotiating the price
Celebrated New Year's Eve in Manhattan by myself
Chastised a drunk on a train
Changed my own windshield wiper blades
Yeah, I know...
But after months of what I call my "Emotional Constipation" period, I…Continue