I came across a necklace with this simple sentence, Just one more chapter. Immediately I thought sheesh isn't it enough to wear your heart on your sleeve, now it's going to hang around your neck. Of course, widow brain kicks in first, I'm sure it was really meant for book lovers. It made me stop and think how many times I've probably given thought to words spoken, read or even pictures with "widow brain" and had myself into an uproar over nothing.
Never once have I ever since…
It's been exactly 406 days since my Douglas went home..
It seems like it was just yesterday, and at the same time it feels like I haven't seen his handsome face and smile in forever.
First year was a blur of existence for me and I'm grateful for the blur.. It has been a brutal relentless heart ache
Now the loneliness is creeping in.. and the reality of it all
I miss our deep (and not so deep) conversations…Continue
Haven’t written for a while. Always difficult during the holiday season. Just returned from a two week holiday with my daughters. It was a lovely escape after the Christmas rush. But now we are back home and reality strikes when you realise how much I really miss my husband and the girls their dad it is so quiet without him. But life must go on.
Christmas is still hard. Since my late husband passed 4 years ago, I would often go and see his mum and his sisters would often be there. So…Continue
Reluctantly being plunged into a new year without the one and only person who knew me loved unconditionally it feels bitter sweet. No celebrating this year went to bed early hoping to dream of my love. I didnt wanna think about not having him not here to be with us . wishing we had never went to the lake that horrible terrible worse day of our lives. Not just the worse fathers day but the beginning of a start to the first of many horrible days. My sons…Continue
I'm beginning year 3 on my journey of grief. As so many of you predicted it has actually gotten softer. S O F T E R, that was a hard word to understand. I get it now, or at least I'm beginning to. I still love my darling Jerry more than anything however I'm also open to sharing my heart with another. (If another catches my attention and proves he deserves it.) Finally, when I'm asked how I'm doing I can say, "I'm doing okay." and mean it.
So many changes in the last 3 years. …