Wait and see turned out to be never.  Kevin was diagnosed with a rare Angiosarcoma tumor in August 2008, and after undergoing a radical…

My husband died.  2 years 5 months 3 days ago.  While the length at which I have been separated by my husband, from death, is a "reasonable amount of time", I still get sad.

I am sad right now.  I hide it, or at least I try to.  I bottle it up and put a HAPPY stamp on it.  Inside though, at least the past few weeks, I have been brewing, stirring, concocting a nasty recipe of despair.  Wow, despair.  Desperate.  Yep, I think that suits it.

The HAPPY stamp is rubbing off.  I have…

A friend Bryan finally had the guts to share his demons. He stepped out on a very shaky limb, and shared his concerns.  It is awesome, I’m proud of him.  I have been fighting through my own demons the past few days, weeks, months, maybe even going on years.  The “What’s Next?” anxiety.

Last night, in my usual widowhood/grief/frustration, I felt that privilege.  I realized this morning that…

I’m stuck.  I am getting “opportunities” left and right that include free perks, meeting cool people.  On paper, it’s awesome.  In my heart, my mind, my soul, I’m going nowhere soon.

I read my friend Paul’s blog today and lightbulbs went off all over my brain.  But then it went back to the picture above.  Mush.  Cream of Wheat to be specific.  Healthy for you, but not the tastiest thing on earth.  Not that any of the emotions in that…

Direct conversation? It has it's limitations.

Studies show that blood flow moves away from the cognitive language centers of the brain when there is trauma or grief. Children, generally, already have less developed verbal abilities. They also have age-appropriate limitations with certain types of understanding and abstract thinking.Trauma and stress can effect children differently, and they will try and act or play it…

Would you like to contribute to the knowledge base of what grief is really like by participating in a research survey? The online publication SLATE is asking those who have suffered the loss of a loved one to take an anonymous survey on the topic of What Is Grief Really Like?

If you are interested in participating, check out the link here:   http://www.slate.com/id/2289332?wpisrc=sl_ipad

some where on the I-5 in CA heading south



862 miles


14 hours in the car


in two days
.

Less actually, because we left at 
1:00 pm on Friday
 and got back tonight (Saturday) at 7:00 pm.





It started with a casual…

Introduction by Supa Dupa Fresh

Most of us have seen this pithy, heartful piece around... or its many, many imitators, with titles like "Letter from a Young Widow," "Letter by a Widow," and so on. Rest assured, this one is the original, and credit must go to Dr. Virginia Simpson.

I spoke to Dr. Simpson in early 2010 about this piece and her recent work in hospice. She confimed what that I already believed about…

http://amyelomawidowsjourney.blogspot.com/2011/03/time.html

Editor’s Note: Many Widows and Widowers find tax time confusing, especially the first year or two after your spouse has died. I’ve asked Kelly Phillips Erb, tax attorney and tax blogger, for some tax advice which she has generously shared here. Kelly first wrote this article in 2009, so there may be some dated information, but I wanted to…

When Kevin died, I said over and over that I would have given up anything to have him still be here on earth.  I no longer feel that immediacy.  While I wish he hadn't passed, I'm content in my new life and where my chapter two is headed.  The immediacy, to have him here in order to survive, is gone.  I am happy to embrace my presence now and see him in the other life.

As tragedy unfolds around me from countries being swallowed by earth and water, to new widows entering this world, to…