I lost my husband Feb 1. My grandson saw him have the heart attack. He had COPD for many years and was diagnosed with heart failure in Nov. He went downhill so quickly. He had a valve that was regurgitating and nothing they could do. He could not eat, drink, he lost weight like crazy. He never lost his mind....always sharp. I am 52, he was 69. We met in church. We were best friends before we ever dated. In fact I became a Christian at that church. I…Continue
I have been self isolating for over six weeks. Yesterday I heard someone complain she had been home from work for two weeks. I guess that is the difference between being young and being old. I see the sense in self isolating if the over 70s seem to be the target group for this virus but it is hard for a socially minded person like me to be held to ransome by this situation, my isolation for the good of my health. I feel as if I am being robbed of something special. I think it is a common…Continue
This morning while doing my norm, having coffee talking to friends, reading over the FB happenings. I found my eyes leaking. I wiped away the first few teardrops but they just kept coming. To my shock, I realized I was crying big silent tears. Why? I had to search myself for a reason, I'd like to say I was crying real grief tears because then I'd…Continue
Eleven years yesterday my beloved and i would have celebrated being married for 11 years.! As i think feeling gutted as i do that i wanted; wait no; The kids and i needed at least 10 more years forsure at the very very least, but then on the other hand, i think well at least we had those 10years, begrudgingly though, i really wanted at least 50 more... And then i think about the kids and how i have been lucky to have both of my parents still to this day and how i couldnt imagine my…Continue
Added by CryinCali on April 25, 2020 at 8:16pm — No Comments
I love podcasts and enjoy listening to anything positive and uplifting. While I was grieving I couldn’t find any meaningful podcast on grief. I was looking for something real and relevant that would provide me with practical advice on how to get through the fog of my grief. I decided as part of my healing and grief journey to start my own podcast. This isn’t a venture to make money but to help other grievers find useful tips. The podcast consist of interviews with other grievers and grief…Continue
Everyday I wake up to be in this nightmare of a life that is not one that I want to be in, instead of this nightmare being when I sleep it exists while I am awake where I remember you are no longer with me and I need to navigate this by myself. At night, I have the possibility of dreaming with you, hugging you and kissing you the way it should be when I am awake but it is not. I keep wondering when will this life feel different one day, will I be able to move on or is this what my new…Continue
Added by Shugarts on April 9, 2020 at 12:16pm — No Comments
She knew that a bay and rocks and trees bending over the surf cannot relieve sadness---can sadness be relieved, or can one only pass it by very slowly?
A day in the radiant sunlight and the sky’s blue, in the shadow of a proud dark sail, over rustling waves, along new coastlines, wouldn’t that help to get past sadness?---for a while, for that one day at least.
Maria Dermoût --- The Ten Thousand Things
Added by pricytapestry on April 3, 2020 at 6:30am — No Comments
With the current crazy times, I'm trying to blog a few times a week. Here's my latest (My first in along time) about trying not fall into self-doubt while having more time alone. Take care. http://www.thehungoverwidow.com/our-inner-critics-in-the-time-of-quarantine/.
Added by The Hungover Widow on April 1, 2020 at 12:15pm — No Comments