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tammy

20 yrs ago i net her in an aol chatroom. we did chat alot then phone till late at night a yr later she moved from rockwood tn. to here. we had so many great yrs. she loved to mow the yard,watch the walking dead and go to wal-mart. about 2 yrs ago her back got worse so i did everything  . was glad to do it. last winter she got a sore throut that was more in her mouth. first doctor thought thrush. then different medicine then specialist. said burning mouth syndrome ,no cause no cure.she could…

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Added by darren on July 12, 2020 at 10:15am — 6 Comments

What you are missing...

I reflect a lot of the state of the world and how you would feel were you still here. I secretly am glad you are not. I will persevere on behalf of us both. It is my sacrifice to you as I know your temperament could never tolerate for very long all the chaos erupting daily. At least not without putting individuals in their places, perhaps not in such a socially accepted manner : - 0

That leaves me with the double labor of complaining and being on the opposite side of the world…

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Added by Tess on July 12, 2020 at 7:26am — 4 Comments

Loneliness

It has only been 2 months since George's death and the loneliness clings to me like a wet shirt.  I knew when I married him that this day would come too soon as he was 14 and a half years older than me.  Even with his death, I don't regret my decision to marry him.  As the Garth Brooks song says... I could have missed the pain, but I would have missed the dance.  For me, one of the worst things is having to put on the act of a happy face when I am dying inside as no one wants to be around…

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Added by Snowhite on July 12, 2020 at 7:15am — 5 Comments

This reminds me of a previous battle

In 199O I was a very busy person. I had two teenaged boys and a 21 year old daughter, I was doing a course in Office Management at a local Technical College and still doing Tupperware parties, church activities etc. I badly needed a break. Our local radio station had a competition where you answered five questions for $90. This was the exact price of a flight to one of the country towns we had lived in when Ray was a Fisheries Officer where old friends had asked us to an anniversary party.…

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Added by only1sue on July 10, 2020 at 7:19pm — 1 Comment

Hitting the one year mark

In less than a month I will be hitting the one year mark of losing my husband.  I am a mix of emotions.  I'm amazed that the year has gone so quickly and I accomplished the things I did, not because I was so motivated to do them but because they were a necessity.  It saddens me that I had to make decisions on my own.  Tom and I made decision about the house, a new car, kids, family, trips, money, even what to have for dinner, we made those decisions together. For the past year I have made…

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Added by TeresaNY on July 10, 2020 at 5:55am — 5 Comments

Good days and blue days

I have run out of interesting things to do. I posted that on my Facebook page and got a mixture of comments. Some people claimed to be very busy, some gave me a run down on what they are  doing to keep occupied, some had some suggestions for me. Our restrictions are lifting a little and so one of the groups I belong to  that were going to be having a picnic in the park on a very rainy day instead booked a table for five in the restaurant of a local Club . One of the ladies said it was her…

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Added by only1sue on June 11, 2020 at 7:11pm — 9 Comments

Death anniversary  "UM NO THANX" I DONT WANT TO CELEBRATE A DAY I WISH NEVER HAPPENED.YOU KNOW WHAT DAY I WISH WOULD HAVE BEEN CELEBRATED BUT NO ONE ACKNOWLEDGED MY ANNIVERSARY OR I WISH I COULD HA…

Death anniversary  "UM NO THANX"

I DONT WANT TO CELEBRATE A DAY I WISH NEVER HAPPENED.YOU KNOW WHAT DAY I WISH WOULD HAVE BEEN CELEBRATED BUT NO ONE ACKNOWLEDGED MY ANNIVERSARY OR I WISH I COULD HAVE CELEBRATED VALENTINES DAY LIKE WE DID EVERY YEAR MY HUSBAND AND I. HE ALWAYS MADE IT SO SPECIAL.

Celebrating the day…

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Added by CryinCali on June 9, 2020 at 4:57pm — 4 Comments

Here's proof it can be done...

I'm such a visual person, I began thinking about what it looks like to continue to grow as a person through grief while posting to "There's a Hole" ---my thoughts wandered to the trees I've seen high up in the mountains standing tall and strong all the while rooted in rock.  I visualized what the little seed must have gone through while it continued to thrive.  I choose to believe those types of illustrations are God's way of showing us we can both survive and…

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Added by Rainy (Misty) on June 9, 2020 at 5:30am — 4 Comments

Suddenly the sole parent - is anyone else out there in this situation ?

I am searching for people (men or women) in similar situations as what I am experiencing.  My wonderful wife of 23 years passed away 10 weeks ago after a 5 month illness. I am faced to deal with everything - is anyone else like this and feeling overwhelmed or who I can converse with about picking up the pieces  ?  I have two wonderful sons, not little but not on their own yet, two dogs and work a full time job (more than 40 hours/week of responsibility).  Time to grieve and dwell on the past…

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Added by Oskar Ruettiger on June 8, 2020 at 5:13pm — 8 Comments

There's A Hole

     One of the things I have learned about the grief of a spouse that quite surprised me really, is that I'm not just grieving the loss of my soulmate. I'm grieving the loss of part of myself. I feel like the best part of me, that person he fell in love with, died when he did. I used to have this incredible zest for life. To me, each new day with him was an exciting new adventure. I viewed our world with optimism and childlike wonder as long as he was in it.…

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Added by ScarletPlumes on June 6, 2020 at 9:45am — 6 Comments

Chasing Memories

It's been a long time since I became a Widow. Over 8 years have past since that previous life- it's like a previous reincarnation of myself- so far separated are the two of us. Her with the husband and the promise of new adventures. And me.

It's a funny thing what your mind does with painful memories. Over time, like the river smoothing down the rough edges of a sharp stone, it bends and softens them. At first, you grasp onto them so tightly, that they are difficult to unwind. But…

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Added by OriRising on June 5, 2020 at 3:55pm — 3 Comments

So, I ponder.....

When Tom died I relied a great deal on friends and family, like I'm sure we all did and possibly still do.  I would not throw away my friends for a thousand years, they have been my strength.  I have a few very close friends that I basically talk to about everything I am thinking and going through, this is why I say I don't need therapy, I have my friends to talk to.  Friends that I don't have to tell my back story to, friends that know what I have been through and just know who I am.  I'm…

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Added by TeresaNY on June 2, 2020 at 4:34am — 7 Comments

Loneliness

I haven't written here in quite a while. I have been dealing with the loss of my husband through the waves that hit me sometimes with knowing and sometimes without. It's a struggle day to day to move on and realize that my life does have meaning. Now my worst are the fears and anxiety that builds in me. I am so lonely for companionship. I know to some, this is wrong, but I can't help it. I want and need to feel alive again. The loneliness kills me deeply. I went on dating apps…

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Added by AandC on May 31, 2020 at 4:06am — 16 Comments

Not the Plan

As a family we all enjoyed sitting together on Wednesday evenings and Watching Modern Family.  There was one particular episode in which the Claire, Phil and the kids were out with an old car and the car starts rolling down this big hill and Claire yells to Phil, "What's the plan Phil?"  After that episode the kids would repeat that line to their father countless times.... what's the plan Tom.... not once did in our wildest dreams think that this was the plan, because it wasn't, it isn't.…

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Added by TeresaNY on May 29, 2020 at 4:45am — 3 Comments

The Loss

I speak

but no one hears

If in a dream

I scream

though no sound comes out


My head below the surface

of a water so deep

Comfort lies

in the deception

of an imposed silence


This second language

so painful to learn

I stumble on my words

that many will not hear

and few will understand

Added by Tess on May 27, 2020 at 6:00am — No Comments

Feeling more in control

It is raining the cold rain of winter. The weather changed last week, before that it was warm days, cool nights but now the nights are really cold. Yesterday afternoon I spent two hours looking for my hot water bottle. I knew it was in a blue, green and yellow cover I had knitted myself. When I finally found it it was in a bright pink cover on which the words "I'm a Hottie" were written in a bold black. This was a jokey gift from my son-in-law for my birthday last year. Now how did I miss…

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Added by only1sue on May 24, 2020 at 7:00pm — 1 Comment

Its anniversary season

Arlene's birthday was 2 weeks ago, the first half of June brings the Strokaversary, the deathaversary and our anniversery of the day we met. So what happened yesterday, just to pile on? I had my job eliminated. 

Added by Don on May 20, 2020 at 2:16pm — 3 Comments

Grief waves

I've always found this to be the perfect explanation of grief waves.

http://allthroughthestorm.blogspot.com/2017/08/grief-is-like-shipwreck.html

Added by Don on May 7, 2020 at 10:42am — 3 Comments

Niki from Florida

I lost my husband Feb 1. My grandson saw him have the heart attack. He had COPD for many years and was diagnosed  with heart failure  in Nov. He went  downhill  so quickly.  He had a valve that was regurgitating and nothing they could do.  He could not eat, drink, he lost weight like crazy. He never lost his mind....always sharp. I am 52, he was 69. We met in church.  We were best friends  before we ever dated. In fact I became a Christian  at that church.  I…

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Added by Green Machine on April 29, 2020 at 6:13am — 2 Comments

Self isolating.

I have been self isolating for over six weeks. Yesterday I heard someone complain she had been home from work for two weeks. I guess that is the difference between being young and being old. I see the sense in self isolating if the over 70s seem to be the target group for this virus but it is hard for a socially minded person like me to be held to ransome by this situation, my isolation for the good of my health. I feel as if I am being robbed of something special. I think it is a common…

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Added by only1sue on April 29, 2020 at 12:23am — 7 Comments

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