''As I watched DJ slip away, I could realize what was ending,
but what I didn’t know, couldn’t know, was what was really just beginning …'' …Continue
My mom said that when you are dead, you are dead until Christ comes and gets you. I wanted to think that
George was in a better place, looking down on us. Yesterday, I moved her ashes from the livingroom to our
bedroom where I have been spending most of my free time lately. When I picked her up and held her next to
my heart, it was like I could feel her essence radiating from inside that little black box. Now I believe that mom is
right, and George is…Continue
Have you thought about being in a relationship again?
It's extremely complicated yet totally satisfying at the same time...however...
Tonight I picked a fight with my boyfriend. It wasn't a big fight, or anything serious, which makes me…Continue
I get it now. I get why people keep telling me how strong I am. I get why people have expressed admiration for my will to keep moving forward.
I get it.
I'm not broken.
Today is a beautiful day.
Today I honour a man who gave so much, who love so deeply, and who is now at peace.
Today I honour a man who introduced me to more family, who gave me two amazing young men and who gave my older kids an amazing example of what a husband and father should…Continue
“If anyone wishes to come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow me. For whoever wishes to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for my sake will save it.” Luke 9:23-24
This is a very tall order. In fact…Continue
People that end up on Widowed Village (WV) are usually alone and devastated by the death of their spouse or loved one. Many have lost parents and/or other close relatives prior to this, but until they actually lose their spouse or loved one, they do not know the pain that we on WV feel. They cannot know it like we do, because the feeling doesn't exist until after it happens and only then can it be felt and understood.
Once we get to WV, then we can begin the first steps in the…Continue
I just came through first wedding anniversary, anniversary of moving into our home and his birthday without being too emotionally exhusted.
My uncle had passed away and his funeral was this past friday. My sister and brother did go and stopped off to see an aunt from my dads side of the family. Apparently my cousin passed away 11 days before my husband did. My aunt naturally called her brother, my dad, and told him along with his nephew and sister in law. At this time he was not…Continue
What can I tell you? Life continues, nothing much changes, I go on from day to day wondering if I am making the right moves, just keeping afloat but hopefully using my time well. At least I feel in clean-up mood so have made the first moves to pile up what I don't want and in Spring will decide what I do want and maybe start to get rid of the rubbish. In the heart of winter is not the time to do that.
The wet, cold days are continuing, we just had another three day rain event with…Continue
Well, I don’t know you and you don’t know me. But, we’ll find out in due time who’s who and who’s not. For me, an extrovert, getting acquainted is fun. I’ve never met a stranger although I have met some very strange folks. I don’t think you will find me odd, I’m pretty much like you. I grew up in the south. My folks are gone now but they raised four of us. I’m the only daughter and I have three brothers. We were pretty normal. My daddy was a deputy sheriff and my mother was a…Continue
I thought I would let everyone know that is interested, that I've started writing a daily inspirational, which I put on my page in my online store. The page is called "Daily Stanism" and can be found at the following link:
Here's a copy of Thursday's and today's Stanism so you'll get an idea of what they are:…Continue
Happy Father's Day everyone! I hope you were able to enjoy the day with your families.
The Mass readings for Father's Day were perfect. In the first reading, David gets a message from God through the prophet Nathan for taking Bathsheba as his own and then killing her husband Uriah the Hittite. What does he get? Forgiven. In Luke's gospel, Jesus is having dinner with a Pharisee when a sinful woman comes in, interrupts the party, anoints Jesus, kisses his feet, cries and dry's his feet…Continue
Sausage Hot or Sweet
Spare Ribs (with bone)
Beef (Thick piece)
28 Oz can Plum Tomato (put in blender to strain)
8 oz can Tomato Paste
garlic and onion
Brown meat in olive oil. When meat is brown, put a little onion and clove of garlic and brown them
Add paste and a can of water for each can of paste
Let paste cook for a few minutes
Add strained plum tomatoes
Salt and pepper
A pinch of sugar
Let the sauce…Continue
It's been one year and 15 days since Wayne's body stopped. Just stopped. His body was alive one minute, and not the next. May 20th, 2012. A week before this was Mother's day, May 13th. The day before that was Saturday. And the hospice team came to meet Wayne, me and our two daughters. They, by some miracle were both home. They were with their Dad his last day home, ever.
Saturday evening Wayne started failing. He was anxious. He was uncomfortable. He was in pain. He'd…Continue
I swear, I’m not fit for human interaction right now.
It’s been slowly building all week. Things are sneaking up on me. I lack focus. I’m…Continue
JUNE 12 2013 @ 10 am
sentencing date of the drunk driver who killed my husband,Craig
As I walk up to the courthouse, I can barely move forward as knots, tangled and massive knots tied into bigger knots fill my stomach---feeling extremely nausious and it's almost debilitating. Now I start to notice the irritating vibrations from the neurons in my brain pulse throughout my entire body, I have to sit down, drink some…Continue
About an hour from now she would speak her last words to me.
"I always loved you"
So as I sit here this morning, drinking my coffee...
She blessed so many lives.
One year ago today, Cindy & I had been married for 27-1/2 wonderful years.
One year ago today, Cindy & I had been friends for 37 years.
One year ago today, Cindy had been in the hospital for 6 days.
One year ago today, my SIL – an M.D. – flew off to Florida. Cindy seemed to be doing better.
One year ago today, Cindy & I were enjoying our time together, even if it was at the hospital.
One year ago today, my daughter was in Uganda.
May 5 2013 was officially three and a half years since Heidi was lost to us. It amazes me still that even after fully grieving and rebuilding in life, I still find myself almost out of breath when I think on the tragedy of that day. For those of you who don't know me or my story, we lost Heidi very suddenly and unexpectedly one dark November night, when in a moment of weakness due to postpartum depression she took her own life. I found myself with a four month old and a 3 and a half year…Continue