Another day when it was dark by 5pm and I am shut in my house. This is winter and winter I do not like. We all tend to shut our doors and stay inside. We shut out the rest of the community, no waving to neighbours or chatting to people walking their dogs and passing by. So winter is isolating and increases our loneliness.
In winter it is harder to motivate myself to go out at night. It is harder to motivate myself to go out when the cold rain is pelting down. Heck it is hard to…Continue
2 years tomorrow.
Feeling your love and presence so strongly.
Letting go of some of the past.
Discovering my new life.
Trusting in the future.
Love you honey.
I've never been someone that needed to take down photos of Toby after he died. I wasn't one that needed to put them all over the place either. I think I have been middle of the road with photos. Never took any down and never put more up. I can look at them, smile,…Continue
This weekend it will be Father's Day, and as a widow still raising a teen boy, the grief wave has hit me already. Grief rears its head unexpectedly and has a life of its own, so I surrender to it and ride the wave until it passes.
Then today in the mail an envelope arrives with my husband's full name on it and I wondered what could this "time sensitive information" actually be, since he has been dead for 30 months. (It's a little late, don't you think? Sorry, a little warped widow…Continue
I lost my husband, David, to stage four non-small cell cancer, adenocarcinoma, on Sunday, June 1, 2014 at 10:44 AM CST. He died in my arms, exactly one year to the day of his diagnosis. He was the most courageous man I've ever met. We were together for nineteen years.
After his diagnosis, Dave started six rounds of chemo treatments from June to November, every three weeks. At first, he was on Taxol and Carboplatin. He responded well to the first treatment, with minimal side…Continue
This year I watched resignedly,
Mother Nature’s turn from winter to spring.
And I didn’t weep or curse or keen,
Against the budding leaves you wouldn’t see.
This year I watched resignedly,
The sun emerge, warm and welcoming.
And I didn’t rage or scream or plead,
When wind turned finally to a friendly breeze.
This year I watched resignedly.
From sky to sea, new life happening.
And I didn’t keep, but…Continue
Oct 8, 2013
To say my husband loved cars would be an understatement. He bought them as often…Continue
I still haven't participated much on this site and I'm sorry for that. But I know it has helped me to read other people's experiences both here and on other sites and in books. This I wrote last October (2013) at the 1 year "deathaversary" of my wife Jackie.
Today marks one year since Jackie passed away. Not really an anniversary one wants to celebrate. It's a difficult time. A time of tragic memory for many of us.
It's hard to believe that it's been a year…Continue
Hello. I just wanted to introduce myself. I just joined this site & am still trying to figure it all out. I just lost my husband at the young at of 30 to a sudden heart attack on January 12th, 2014. Has it already been almost 5 months?? I feels like years since I last saw him but it also feels like just yesterday? These last 4 months have been a complete blur to me.
Scott was an avid runner/weight lifter. He lived for fitness & playing sports. Both passions of his. He would…Continue
I woke up this morning around 4:30 and thought: "I have enough time to hop in the shower and make a pot of coffee for Tony (my husband) before he gets home from work." I sat up and realized that the bed wasn't the same one we'd been sleeping in for years and remembered.
Happy 52nd Birthday Honey!
When Heavens gate opens
As I sit alone at…Continue
Well, today I shot craps. I spent most of the day in bed. Unbelievable! I've done something that I told myself not to do! I didn't want to get up this morning but the dog needed to go out and be fed. I read for a little while and then crawled right back into bed. My son came over about 2:00 to find out if I was still alive. He'd been texting me for a couple of hours and I hadn't responded. I did explain to him that if he'd actually called I would have answered the phone. All my…Continue
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