I know I never heard of this term or came to the realization that I was “different“ in having this trait until after you were gone, but somehow it seems such a weight to carry without you.
It is worse as I get older, but I suppose that is not unusual. The loud noises, bright lights, crowds, and so much information coming from all directions. Sometimes it all overwhelms me.
Yesterday was our grandson’s 11th birthday, which I can hardly believe such time has passed. He enjoyed…Continue
Hello, everyone. I am new to this club. I lost my husband of 35 years ( 2 1/2 weeks short of 36 years) on May 8th, 2019. Wow, writing that was hard! I have a hard time expressing myself, so I will keep this short. My husband was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer on Jan 30th, 2019. He went fast. In 36 years I had only seen him sick once, he had a very bad case of bronchitis. I still can't believe he is gone, I am lost without him! I have no support system whatsoever. The last 14…Continue
It will be 2 years August 16 that I found my husband dead in our car, he was waiting for me while I had my Mom at an appointment. I came out and he was slumped over steering wheel, I thought he was sleeping, but when I touched him, I knew. The EMT worked on him for over 15 minutes, then transferred him to the hospital where a Doctor pronounced him dead. The rest of that afternoon is still a blur, and the days following. The past couple of months I am more sad and depressed, our 30th…Continue
20 yrs ago i net her in an aol chatroom. we did chat alot then phone till late at night a yr later she moved from rockwood tn. to here. we had so many great yrs. she loved to mow the yard,watch the walking dead and go to wal-mart. about 2 yrs ago her back got worse so i did everything . was glad to do it. last winter she got a sore throut that was more in her mouth. first doctor thought thrush. then different medicine then specialist. said burning mouth syndrome ,no cause no cure.she could…Continue
I reflect a lot of the state of the world and how you would feel were you still here. I secretly am glad you are not. I will persevere on behalf of us both. It is my sacrifice to you as I know your temperament could never tolerate for very long all the chaos erupting daily. At least not without putting individuals in their places, perhaps not in such a socially accepted manner : - 0
That leaves me with the double labor of complaining and being on the opposite side of the world…Continue
It has only been 2 months since George's death and the loneliness clings to me like a wet shirt. I knew when I married him that this day would come too soon as he was 14 and a half years older than me. Even with his death, I don't regret my decision to marry him. As the Garth Brooks song says... I could have missed the pain, but I would have missed the dance. For me, one of the worst things is having to put on the act of a happy face when I am dying inside as no one wants to be around…Continue
In 199O I was a very busy person. I had two teenaged boys and a 21 year old daughter, I was doing a course in Office Management at a local Technical College and still doing Tupperware parties, church activities etc. I badly needed a break. Our local radio station had a competition where you answered five questions for $90. This was the exact price of a flight to one of the country towns we had lived in when Ray was a Fisheries Officer where old friends had asked us to an anniversary party.…Continue
In less than a month I will be hitting the one year mark of losing my husband. I am a mix of emotions. I'm amazed that the year has gone so quickly and I accomplished the things I did, not because I was so motivated to do them but because they were a necessity. It saddens me that I had to make decisions on my own. Tom and I made decision about the house, a new car, kids, family, trips, money, even what to have for dinner, we made those decisions together. For the past year I have made…Continue