Walter, it seems you are always on my mind, no matter where I am or what I'm doing. If I'm laughing I think of you, if I'm happy, I think of you, and if I'm sad I long for you because you would tell me that everything is going to be OK,don't worry, and then we would pray and you would wrap me in your arms. We could sit for hours just like that and not have to say a word. Soulmates. I just miss you, my love and I know I always will. You are my forever love and I will love you until the day…Continue
Well I had our grief support group on Tuesday night and we had to bring a photo of our loved one and talk about them. Well as you can imagine many many tears. I can talk about Craig no problems to all my friends but to actually talk about him to strangers was very confronting.
I actually thought it was a bit late in the journey to be doing group counselling as it was 17 months this week :( and I have been having private counselling on a monthly basis. BUt as I realised there are…Continue
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Susan and I was talking about how we need to get out of the house and enjoy the fresh air and nature by going on walks. The problem is we are all so diverse in where we live so we can not walk together. Susan thought of putting up a blog and when we go on our walks to post what we see and hear and feel. We were talking of walking a couple of times a week or more, depending on how we are feeling. Susan has been busy so I am starting the blog. and inviting all my friends and those on…Continue
Cancer, I am sick of it.
It’s everywhere. It’s been around for years and it kills people all the time. The young the old it’s everywhere. I just can’t understand at this point in time. The 21st century and all, the human kind has not found a cure for this dreadful disease. Sure, they have treatments. Chemotherapy that’s real great. Poison for your body. Hopeful they kill the cancer cells before they kill you. It leaves you weak and sick, puking your guts up and may…
3 weeks ago was the start of everything...Celebrating my son's birthday a week early because I didn't want to lump it into the same short time-frame as my birthday and his Dad's death. In-laws came in from out of town & that was a complete joke. Having to not only get the house ready for a party but for relatives to be there for a whole of 48 hours because they feel that it is important that our boys spend time with each other (but only on their birthdays) & dealing with a…Continue
Come home to me,
This pain should not be,
Come home to me.
You were always here,
And now you’re there .........
A hug, a smile, and the laughs we shared
All gone, what remains is darkness and tears
I close my eyes and smell you near
So fresh and close it’s almost real
Come home to me
This can not be
My darling, handsome husband,
It's been three months today since you left us. Three long months since I held you, kissed you, heard your voice saying, "I love you, my love." I don't even know how I've made it this far, the months have been a blur. I wake up every morning and the memories flood back, memories of the morning I found you cold in our bed and my nightmare began. Sometimes I still don't believe you're gone...but it's starting to really hit me that you are. We had…Continue
So many times on this most recent journey, I have been reminded how many wonderful people/experiences I would have not known/had if I had not been 'open' to them. And how the vast majority of these experiences have become my strongest support. I wonder how many opportunities I would have missed if I had insisted "that I can do this myself".
The memorial at Hospice was very touching, every speaker from Hospice thanked us for allowing them the honor of being part of our lives---…
Please see my blog post:
Grief and hope try to be friends, but it isn't easy. Grief pulls back, gets scared, loses its mind in the past. Hope moves forward quickly, not even imagining all the trouble that might lie in wait up ahead. Hope is full of energy. Hope wants to branch out, try something new, get out and get going.
Grief takes a big long nap and is grateful for the quiet. Grief needs to lose weight and feels too heavy to get up and start all over again. Grief holds on tight to what is known.…Continue
Today's blog post:
Well today Sunday Sept 25th would have been my 30th wedding anniversary. So far tonight i seem to be doing fine. I am trying not to think about it.. Lately i have been doing good. I really don't think about Tony everyday anymore. I guess I am going on with my life now. I am leaving for vacation on monday Sept 26th and going to my brother in laws (tonys brother) house. I feel close to tony when I am there and i get my head together. I am going monday because i did not want to subject…Continue
The pain that knows no words
I stare at your ski jacket, suck in the smell
Your leather jacket. YOUR leather jacket
Hanging stubbornly, loyally waiting for your return
I stare trying to absorb the finality of it all
My emotions doing a psychotic tango in my heart
I cannot summarize this struggle
To wrap my arms around the fact that you will never return
Never walk to that closet to wear…Continue
I mentioned this is chat, but didn't want to post until I tried it. Well I made this last Monday nite, yummy and so easy. With the help of a timer the "widowed" brain can do this. Find the timer on your oven or buy one- Supa's can of beer may not help!! Happy Baking
(1) Betty Crocker Angel Food Cake Mis
(2) One can of 18 oz. Pineapple Crushed in own juices (not if u get chuncks by mistake- just put it in the food processor- no worry)
Bake according to box…Continue