All Blog Posts Tagged 'life' (19)

I am not really sure where my husband went off to. He died. Yes. But it never feels that way. It feels as if he were part of some horrible magic trick in some terrible, cheesy Vegas act. One second – here. The next second – gone. POOF! Magic! It feels as though I took a nap, and then woke up and he went missing, never to be seen again. He died while I was asleep. Asleep. Im not sure that I will ever know how to process that. Im not sure that I want to. I am sure that there…

                                       I love this time of year, the changing leaves, the smells, the storms, and the dampness in the air.  There’s a taste in the air, a taste of harvest apples and pumpkins, of coming snows, and of cold wet winds.  You can hear it walking through the leaves, in the trees whispering and sometimes shouting winter is coming time to slow down, time to think of things that have been.  It is a time…

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Just thought I'd pop up another poem, been in the mood to write poetry all day today.

A Candle Burns

A scented candle burns tonight

Upon the table before the fire

The perfume fills the air

Delicate lilies and ginger

The candle light dances on the roof

A warm and steady glow

Makes the room cosy and warm

A foil for winters’ gloom

The warmth of the fire

And a…

I’ve always been one to believe in the magic of second chances.  When something goes wrong, there may always be opportunity awaiting me around the corner…when God closes a door, he opens a window…all of those types of ideas have been a staple in my life.  Practice make perfect, there’s always tomorrow and don’t give up have always been a piece of my repertoire.  Dave was my second chance at a happy marriage…and I was his. We had both been married before and it took us a long time and much…

One thing I have noticed that as a widow we come upon many new milestones. I know I've had several. I changed my first tensioner pulley on my truck. I've bought my first lawn mower and weedeater...on my own. I think the biggest milestones we seem to reach is the making of decisions on our own without consulting someone else (the partner who once was). Small repairs around the house that were nothing to my Mikey, are like big reasons to party when I do them now. Don't get me wrong...there is…

I have been brought to my knees in this darkest of all human experiences.

I have been forcibly introduced to pain in all its forms.  I never knew there were so many levels of pain with varying degrees . . . so like a palette with infinite hues and saturation levels.  

I have been hellishly intimate with pain and its many companions, locked helplessly in its cold, fiery, embrace.

In my, oh so limited life experience and innocence, innately secure and…

My smile, my tears, the expressions I use...they are a reflection. So many of the people in my world never met Yuri, yet somehow feel a connection to him.  I think of Yuri regularly and how he would fit in this new world I live in. He would be so proud of me.  In reality, I know I may not have ever met most of the…

On the surface, we never know what a person is going through. The person with who appears to have it all, may indeed struggle.  We often don't take the time to ask someone how they are doing or feeling, or if we do we may not truly listen to their reply. We may hear what we want to hear.

As widow/ers,…

Waiting.

Wishing.

Realizing.

Negotiating.

Lately, I feel like I am just waiting. Waiting to see what will happen next. Waiting in line for my turn. Waiting for the good news. Waiting to dream. Each day goes by so quickly, and the week is through. Before I know it another month has passed,…

death sucks.

it is so permament.

but it is a fact of life that we are all mere mortals.

we all will die.

Death sucks no matter when it happens. It hurts the mother of the stillborn child. It hurts the husband of the 96 year old wife. Death sucks even if it makes the one who's life ended more "at peace" because those of us left behind feel the loss.  Why are people so afraid of death and dying?? Why do people get uncomfortable when…

There are so many layers to the grieving process.  There are times I may feel so sad and alone, longing to see and hold Yuri one more time. Then there are times when I feel happy and at peace knowing he is always with me because he is a part of me. I was forced to focus on how he died for so long because of the lawsuit I pursued.  All I wanted was to bring justice for him and hold people accountable for their failures. The process was quite arduous and draining.  With the litigation behind…

Transforming Your Life After The Loss of a loved One

by JoAnne Funch

Grieving the loss of someone significant in our lives is often the most difficult work we will ever do, it is also the most universal.



In my case, I lost my mother and husband within a month of each…

My life is in constant flux. Honestly, I have to laugh at some of the WTF moments.  Just when you think you have been through enough, you have proven you are strong, something else comes along and challenges you.  As if losing a spouse at age 28 wasn't hard enough, never getting that chance to turn the key to our first home or hear the sound of our child's first laugh, because he died before any of those dreams could come to fruition.  I am proud of the choices and changes I have made for…