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In two days it will be 18 months since I lost my husband of 20 years of marriage to a rare cancer, leaving me to raise our teen son alone. And here I am wondering why I'm so burdened with sadness and despair, and why I keep bursting into tears. A phrase I saw years ago: "The mind tries to forget, but the heart always remembers."
It is not just the approach of Father's Day that is bringing up the sadness. I realized it was the memories of what happened two years ago during the month…Continue
I am learning a new way to move through this life I now have (I didn't want it, but I have it anyway). Its choreography is "messed up", as my teenage students would say. If there is a rhythm to it, I haven't discovered it yet. It's two steps forward, one step back. Two steps back, one step forward. Often there are long pauses with no movement. Sometimes I step sideways. Let me describe it.
I get up, pay the bills, go to work. Interact with my coworkers as if my life…Continue
To all the widowed people I have known: please forgive me. I did not know how much pain you were feeling. I didn't know that you would feel like you were having a heart attack, because the pressure and pain in your chest was so intense. I did not know that you would be so exhausted just with the effort of walking through the day. I didn't know you were frightened of suddenly being responsible for EVERYTHING, yet being unable to think clearly or nake decisions. I didn't know that your…Continue
Today, I finished my book! My fingers have been dancing across the keyboard for three days straight. How did I finally get the "source" and knowledge to spew onto the monitor and into the computer?
It wasn't easy. Two weeks ago, I had 18 chapters. I was planning on dedicating a couple hours each day. I got distracted, it was easy to find something else to focus on. I still felt incomplete.
Tosha Silver, a columnist/Astrologer for the examiner.com invited me and my…
This is the first time I have ever blogged so if I get it wrong I am sorry. Today is 8/9/11.
Yesterday was 3 months since my husband my lover my friend passed away.
I only recently found this place and I can't thank you all enough for creating it. It helps…Continue
I eat--but do not taste
I sleep--but do not rest
I see--but do not recognize
I listen--but do not hear…Continue