...... of widowed people.
Added by Janine (txmomx6) on March 6, 2013 at 8:51am —
...... or not.
Monday was Jim's birthday. He wasn't here, of course, but it was still his birthday.
I wonder if anyone else remembered?
I almost forgot ...... for a while.
I mean, I knew it was coming ..... I always know that it's coming.
But last week I was in the middle of moving to NYC (part time) and in all of the flurry I didn't think about it while I was there ...... until Saturday. When a widow friend, our kids, and I were walking around the city,… Continue
Added by Janine (txmomx6) on January 9, 2013 at 11:49am —
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Added by Janine (txmomx6) on December 20, 2012 at 9:50am —
There really aren't.
My heart hurts from the emptiness it feels for the 20 families ..... of kindergartners.
And the 7 families ..... of the heroic staff/teachers.
But no words.
No, that's not true.
There is one word.
One word that I've heard many times just today.
One word that I've heard, and I've even said over and over these past 5… Continue
Added by Janine (txmomx6) on December 14, 2012 at 7:36pm —
...... is sometimes very, very hard to find.
Which, sometimes, makes this time of the year very, very hard to endure.
No ...... Thanksgiving ...... and the month of December ...... oh, hell, we might as well go all the way to that crappiest holiday of them all ...... February 14th (I don't even want to say/type the name) ...... are days that should not have to be "endured" ...... but it's a fact that they are.
I had always heard that this time of the year has a… Continue
Added by Janine (txmomx6) on November 21, 2012 at 10:49am —
Added by Janine (txmomx6) on October 31, 2012 at 5:00am —
(not wound so perfectly after I used it) Continue
........ or at least…
Added by Janine (txmomx6) on October 10, 2012 at 5:49pm —
Added by Janine (txmomx6) on October 3, 2012 at 9:56pm —
...... it's suddenly not.
I have always described grief and grieving as standing in the ocean. In the beginning I wasn't able to keep standing because of the relentless pounding of the waves. They came at me one after another. It felt as if I were in the middle of a a typhoon, or a hurricane. I've been in the… Continue
Added by Janine (txmomx6) on September 13, 2012 at 4:42pm —
…… without him.
In a little over three months I will have been without Jim for 5 years.
In those 5 years I’ve had to do many things without…
Added by Janine (txmomx6) on September 8, 2012 at 12:45pm —
...... does not heal all wounds.
Or maybe I haven't experienced enough time.
No, I don't really believe that, either.
I don't think that… Continue
Added by Janine (txmomx6) on September 8, 2012 at 12:43pm —
Added by Janine (txmomx6) on August 22, 2012 at 9:24pm —
...... whatever that means.
I returned home last night from Camp…
Added by Janine (txmomx6) on August 15, 2012 at 8:05am —
Added by Janine (txmomx6) on August 1, 2012 at 8:29pm —
(picture from here)
..... is what I seem to be doing right now.
And while I am proud of myself for being a survivor ....
that job is not… Continue
Added by Janine (txmomx6) on July 18, 2012 at 5:56pm —
(NOTE: It took me well over two weeks to begin to write this post. I knew that I had to write about the experience, but I dreaded doing it because I knew the tears would flow, and I wanted to put that off as long as possible. The tears came but I worried more about the response that… Continue
Added by Janine (txmomx6) on May 9, 2012 at 6:41pm —
.... but now I'm feeling "normal" (I wanted to write that I was feeling "Pissed", but I didn't want to offend some of you by putting that in the title. If it offends you in parenthesis .... I apologize).
A few months after Jim died it became clear to me that I needed to see my… Continue
Added by Janine (txmomx6) on January 8, 2012 at 6:49am —
Added by Janine (txmomx6) on December 1, 2011 at 9:33am —
Picture from here
.... since I've heard three small words.
I heard, or rather, read them yesterday.
And I was… Continue
Added by Janine (txmomx6) on September 30, 2011 at 6:57am —