My heart died the day yours stopped beating.
Sitting here alone trying to figure out my life
They call me widow, I call me your wife.
I will never understand why
I am still living and you had to die.
I put on a face for everyone to see
they think I'm okay, only I know that could never be
me here without you...you there without me.
I promise to try, give it all I got
Life is lonely, don't know if people can see
Picks you up and slams you down, knocking everything loose.
Shattering everything that was sold, secure and good
Never to be the same again.…Continue
I am better now then my previous post. My family chased away my blues.
My daughter came and cooked for us. I walked with my grandchildren from house to house trick or treating. The night was clear and beautiful I could hear laughter and felt God's peace touch me.
I am a widow.
I am grieving.
I am going to get through this.
I know this is the hardest thing I have ever gone through
I know God's with me.
I know one day we will be united in…Continue
Tears on my face but I cannot, will not try to stop them. Knowing I will never hold you again or feel your breath close to me just hurts so bad. Like a silent movie, memories run through my mind. I can't find the off button.
I try to stop wondering why I am still here and you had to die.
Just missing you.
Thirteen months ago I began this journey that I did not ask for, did not want. I do not know where it will take me but I hold hope in my heart that one fine day I will feel joy again.
It has been so long that I have forgotten what it feels like when your whole being just smiles. I do not think I will ever feel that again but I will settle for joy in seeing a sunrise or sunset. Right now I do not feel anything except sorrow.
I love being outdoors and walk a lot. When…Continue
Wanted to reach out and make some friends as it is a lonely in my world.
My husband was a surfer, he loved the ocean, beach, sun, everything that went with it. A long time ago he made me promise if anything happened to him he wanted to be cremated and his ashes to be put in the ocean. A year ago last October we did just that. The…Continue