As I look at the clock tonight, I realize that I have now officially been a widow for three years. There is still not a single day where I don’t think of Tim. I know that I will forever miss him and I know that there will still be days where I cry for him. I look at our son and see so much of his daddy in him…a daddy he will never know. How is it that he has the same food likes and dislikes when he was only 9 months old when daddy went to Heaven? I have studied genetics and not one…Continue
Next Friday (5/6) will mark the three year anniversary to me becoming a widow. When I was first widowed, other widows would tell me that the third year was the worst. I could never understand how that could be possible, but now, I do. I have been more emotional, short-fused, and feeling more unhinged in the past few days than I have in the past 2 1/2 years. I have cried more in the past two or three days than I have over the past year. It was even more frustrating to have no idea as to…Continue
Here's another old blog of mine. It was when I was contemplating dating again and all the trouble I was having dealing with people.
Hard to breathe. Burning in my throat and chest. Queasy stomach. Throbbing headache. The depression is back. My shattered heart strains to keep together with every beat. There are tears screaming and burning behind my eyelids, aching to be released. Why am I here again? Oh, that’s right, I thought I saw a light at the end of the tunnel. …Continue
Added by Shannon on May 27, 2009 at 10:00am — No Comments
It’s impossible to believe that, isn’t it? Actually, there are days that feel like he’s been gone for more like a century, as if the part of my life with him was a dream, not a reality. But, scattered remnants of our life together are reminders that he wasn’t just a dream. Look how much has changed in this short amount of time. Our baby boy is not so little anymore. He’ll be two in a few short months. He’s a growing toddler who is way too smart for his own good. He’s…Continue
Added by Shannon on May 25, 2009 at 10:00am — No Comments
This blog is long and I wrote it shortly after the accident that took my husband's life. It was therapuedic for me to release it on "paper".
It was a sunny, beautiful Tuesday. I didn’t take a lunch that day because Lucas was scheduled for his 9 month old check-up at 4 that afternoon. I called Tim to make sure he was awake. It was to be his 2nd day on 2nd shift, and I missed him. Lucas and I had actually been staying with my mom for a few days at…Continue