When I think about my husband and all the things I loved about him, I try to keep his legend alive for my kids. Difficult to believe, it will soon be 5 years, and our memories of him are sadly beginning to fade. For my youngest, going from 9 to 14 and my oldest from 15 to building her own life at 20, a lot of time has passed. It is getting harder to remember what it felt like to not be empty. It is getting harder to remember all of the intricacies of his…Continue
If I could have just one more day
When you weren't sick - you were still OK
I'd hold your hand and never let go
I'd kiss you with the depth of my soul
I'd compliment you through the night
Put my arms around you - hold you tight
Run my fingers through your hair
We'd talk smile and laugh, like we hadn't a care
We'd tickle our daughters, laughing together
Build strong family bonds, forever and ever
Then I'd stop the clock and…Continue
Today would have been our 23rd wedding anniversary. How have I already spent this day alone 3 times? I have no idea. Don't ask me what I did the last two years, I haven't a clue. I am sure I will reflect next year back to this year and also have no idea how I spent today either.
I do remember our 20th anniversary - our last. We never did much for our anniversaries, but we figured this one was special, so we snuck away for an overnight and booked a golf getaway. I think you golfed…Continue
This site has really helped me to address thoughts and emotions that I have held at bay the last 2 years. I am glad I have an outlet now to 'express' not 'suppress' and post some of my writing to those of you who truly understand. I hope it helps you all in some way - maybe simply in the fact that we understand eachother.
Maybe in heaven it doesn't hurt so much
Maybe in heaven you can still feel my touch
Maybe in heaven you don't cry
Maybe in heaven…Continue
I juggle the kids, the bills, the life
Trying to run from the label: lonely wife
I miss you so much, it hurts so deep
It's 3am, I'm still unable to sleep
Your touch, your kiss, your love - all gone
I'm a shell of a person, without you to lean on
You made me better; you made me complete
It should have been someone else when God hit "delete"
Couldn't he see we were a pair?
A love beyond measure, no one could compare