Well, I've made it through most of the second set of holidays. Charlies birthday would have been Jan,6th. He would have been 64. That's the end of the biggies till May which will be Mothers Day, my birthday and would have been our 46th anniversary.
There are days I don't think I'll ever be really happy again. Then there are days I believe I've put my grief behind me. Oh what pranksters our minds are. It's different day to day, week to week, month to month.
I am resolved…Continue
I still find that hard to say. I'm a widow.
Six months a widow. I don't think things have gotten much better. I'm still bitter and angry. This week has been difficult,and now Mother's Day. I wasn't his mother but I was the mother of his children and he always made it a special day for me.
Then my birthday is May 26th and what would have been our 45th anniversary is May 31st. Follow that up with Fathers Day in June. My summer is off to a rough start...
I took that short…Continue
I've not posted here for a while. There have been a few changes. I 've been going through all the financial stuff and have come to the realization that Hubby has left me with too little funds. I am barely going to have enough to pay the mortgage and utilities. I do have some savings but I need to make them last for about 2 yrs,3 mths. I think I'll have enough each month from those savings to make up the difference.That is when I will be eligible for SS and Medicare. My health insurance…Continue
I hate it hate it hate it. I do not like this being a widow.
I have spent the day taking down the few Christmas decorations and the little tree I bought. In the south it's supposed to be bad luck to take it down before New Years Day. I'll take my chances this year.
Hubby always did the tree and put everything up afterwards. I miss him so much. His teasing grin, his gentle touch, his oh-so-tight hugs when I needed comforting. He's not here to comfort me during these missing him…Continue
Today is December 28th. Yesterday marked 2 months since Hubby went home. I thought I was doing good until yesterday afternoon. Once I was off work and in my car I cried most of the way home and all evening up to bedtime.
I've only dreamed of my beloved once since he died. In my dream we were traveling, wearing backpacks and in an airport. That was weird because neither of us ever did backpacks. I would be interested to learn the meaning of that dream.
Hubby always paid our…Continue
Phil passed away on Sunday,Oct.27th,2013. My neighbor next door was at the house as soon as the paramedics showed up. My youngest brother, my sister in law and most of my neighbors were at the house at some point during that day. Church members and neighbors brought food to the house . My oldest brother and his wife came in from North Carolina that same day. Nieces and nephews are here. My daughter is here within 3 hours of my call and our son, daughter in law and granddaughters came in…Continue
Added by Charlies wife on December 22, 2013 at 12:20pm — No Comments
I am a widow.
My husband Phil and I had been married 44 years when he died October 27th,2013 at age 62 . We had known each other since we were 12 years old.
He had been sick for about a year. He wasn't officially diagnosed with lung cancer until February of this year. He started out with a cold and cough that wouldn't go away since October of 2012.He had been on three rounds of antibiotics. He was finally convinced to see a pulmonary specialist. The doctor ordered x-rays,then…Continue