CrazyWidow's Blog – April 2012 Archive (4)

I can feel the surge of the wave of grief.  The tide pulling me out, under, sucking the breathe out of me and causing my heart to race.  This is what happens when the past overwhelms me.  It has become even more difficult to deal with as my brain tries to understand celebrating a present and a future while mourning a past.  Sometimes those events overlap.

This week marked 2 years ago that I met the boy.  Two wonderful, growing, and enriching years.  This week also marks the week that…

When I see these pictures of Kevin, just about a month after his 36th Birthday, his last birthday on earth,

I see such life.

Kevin would be 40 on Saturday, April 7, 2012.

It's a moment I know I, probably more than him, would have looked forward to.  If he were here.

I know myself, and I have a feeling I'd be renting or making one of those "Lordy, Lordy, Looks Who's 40??" signs.

There would…

Hello and greetings from CrazyWidow & CampWidow CWx2.

I realized, on my second year here at Camp Widow, that you can take time for yourself while you are here.  Last year, I was overwhelmed - having broken my back 2 weeks prior to arrival, the trip was long and painful, and I was heavily medicated.  I was presenting a blog workshop with the awesome Supa Dupa Fresh but just did not feel I had my wits about me.  Combination of injury, drugs, and just plain…

Hello and greetings from CrazyWidow & CampWidow CWx2.

I realized, on my second year here at Camp Widow, that you can take time for yourself while you are here.  Last year, I was overwhelmed - having broken my back 2 weeks prior to arrival, the trip was long and painful, and I was heavily medicated.  I was presenting a blog workshop with the awesome Supa Dupa Fresh but just did not feel I had my wits about me.  Combination of injury, drugs, and just plain…