What can I tell you? Life continues, nothing much changes, I go on from day to day wondering if I am making the right moves, just keeping afloat but hopefully using my time well. At least I feel in clean-up mood so have made the first moves to pile up what I don't want and in Spring will decide what I do want and maybe start to get rid of the rubbish. In the heart of winter is not the time to do that.
The wet, cold days are continuing, we just had another three day rain event with…Continue
I am feeling very lonely. The winter grey days are here, light rain some days with sunny breaks other days clouds hang low and rain falls steadily. The forecast is often occassional showers, that is weatherman speak for: "I am not going to tell you the truth, it is more than my job is worth." So no-one says this could go on for the rest of the month,because that would discourage tourists. Instead it is always cheerfully presented as a part of the year when of course it is cold, and might…Continue
Some days I am fine, full of energy, able to focus, able to process information, almost back to where I was in 1999 before Ray's major strokes. Then the next day I am back in bereavement mode, fogged in mentally, hemmed in by those “if only” thoughts, quite unable to do whatever it is I need to be doing right now. I wonder why I keep going back to that wishful thinking? I ask myself (and the universe) :”WHY????”. It may be hot or cold, summer or winter, an…Continue