It's been a little over 4 years since my Husband died of cancer. He was my soul mate and best friend for 31 years. It has been a rough journey going on without him. I have made many changes to my life and I finally feel like I am going to be alright. I am much stronger than I ever thought I was. I still feel the loneliness but not all the time like in the beginning of this journey. My constants have been my 2 Daughters and my Grandson. They are the most important people in my…Continue
It has been 3 1/2 years since my Husbands death. The first year was almost unbearable. I didn't know that I had that many tears in me! The second and third years have been better emotionally. I still get teary eyed but it is not a daily thing. There are more positive and good days now. I was watching a movies (love story) yesterday and it was a tear jerker. Tears were rolling down my face and my thoughts were of my beautiful Husband. I was full of sadness and felt so…Continue
It's been 3 years and 4 months since my Husband died. Never did I think that he would be gone at age 57. We had plans on traveling the U.S. once he retired. The 2 months from diagnosis to his death are a blur some days and other times I can remember every event: so many hospital visits (1 month in total) because of the toll the cancer was doing to his body. One of the saddest things was when he had to start using a walker to get around because of neurological…Continue
I just returned from my California trip. My Mother and Aunt reuniting after not seeing each other for years was heartwarming. I am happy that I could make that possible for my Mother. I had a okay time, was mainly thinking of my Husband, who died 69 days ago. I didn't want to be a downer, so I put on a smile and acted like everything was fine. I was glad to get home this morning to my own surroundings where I feel comfort. I don't feel like I fit in anywhere. I don't want to be around…Continue
I was having a crappy day! Feeling depressed, sad, lonely. Thinking of my Husband who died 30 days ago of cancer. Wondering how I am going to go on and what my new normal will be. I went to get the mail and there was a certificated from hospice saying that a tree was planted in honor of my Husband, William, Bill to me. It brought some peace to my heart.