Anniversaries.

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Comment by Dianne in Nevada on April 14, 2012 at 1:05pm

I'll hit 19 months in a week, Maggie, and I've found the anticipation has always been worse for me than the actual days. I've made it through the one year anniversary of his death, 2 of his birthdays, our 42nd wedding anniversary, my 60th birthday ... and I'm still breathing. You will, too. One small step at a time. We're here to help you along the way.

Comment by Lyn on April 14, 2012 at 12:18pm

You are definitely in my thoughts and prayers this weekend.  Try to be good to yourself.  It isn't easy, but you can get through it - we are all there with you.

Comment by kimkirt (KK) on April 13, 2012 at 4:07pm

We will hold your hand, Maggie. Hope you can feel it. HUGS.

Comment by Patty Sue on April 12, 2012 at 6:12pm

I'll be praying that the anticipation is worse than the actual days; I usually find that to be true. So sorry for your pain.

Comment by Marsha on April 11, 2012 at 3:58pm

Maggie, I think we all have memories and demons that haunt us. There are things I wish I had done differently knowing what I know now. Too late. Believe this is part of the journey. Be gentle with yourself. You are only human and Richard knew how much you loved him. You are so new to this journey of grief. Please keep coming here to post, read the blogs and posts and if you need to talk go to chat. This is a community where we truly care about one another and we will help you on this journey. It is a day at a time and a baby step at a time. It's all you can do. Sending more hugs your way!

Comment by Maggie gram on April 11, 2012 at 3:33pm

I remember on Friday before Richard died on Sunday and the Hospice social worker came into the room and I suggested we go out into the hall to talk and Richard said no, he wanted to hear what we talked about.  We talked softly so I don't think he heard most of it because he was a little hard of hearing but I just think about the fact that he knew that when Hospice comes in it is near the end so he had to know he was dying.  That hurts me.  He seemed at peace with it but he couldn't talk so I don't know if he was or not.  I can't stop thinking about it right now and I can't stop crying.

Comment by Marsha on April 11, 2012 at 3:31pm

(((((Maggie))))) I found the anticipation to be worse than the actual day. So many memories. Pray you find peace and comfort.

Comment by Blue Snow on April 11, 2012 at 2:57pm

I can sure identify with what you're going through. My husband died on January 18th and our anniversary is on the 16th and we'll be interning his ashes on that day as well. Take it one step at a time and you will find the strength you need.

Comment by Joyce on April 11, 2012 at 1:37pm

Hugs to you Maggie, today is my 6 month mark and for some reason it is hitting me pretty hard. I will be thinking about you on Sunday and also on the 19th.