Only one who can bear the silence will hear the voice of God

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Comment by carolynne on June 6, 2012 at 11:14pm

(((((Carol))))) heartbreaking.

Comment by Ccdague on May 28, 2012 at 11:27am

Chez2all......I can feel that your emotion is still so acute...i am only 2 months out.....but I am forever changed by being on this journey with Denny.

Comment by chez2all on May 28, 2012 at 3:39am

I sit with my love on his last day on earth, each breath is painful to hear. "It's ok to go my love, we're going to be fine" the words I find myself speaking to release you.  This is too hard, watching you struggle, watching you loose your battle.  As you draw your last breath I find myself holding mine, our hearts beating together for a short time...and then I hear only mine...the peace of that moment, the relief as you go, the pain of the realization that you have left, the unconditional love I feel for you at this moment will remain a profound part of my life forever.  

11 years later I still feel these moments and the pain is bearable, never gone but replaced with peace.  I am so blessed to have had you in my life and you will always be in my heart.

Comment by Joyce on May 25, 2012 at 7:30pm

Oh Carol, so beautiful and true.  Thanks!

Comment by Suz on May 25, 2012 at 4:37pm

Carol,

This is so beautiful and so true. I remember running to the hall, looking for nurses, doctors, whoever I could find, to give Jud more medication. In truth, I was sent on a mission by the family to give him enough to help him transition. I came back with his dear doctor and he was peacefully sleeping. We all rested for an hour and he awoke and spent six hours in "air hunger." I was told that this was brain stem activity and he could not feel it but his face was turned right to mine. We sang, talked to him and prayed until he abruptly took his last breath. I wanted a pain free transition for him. Neither of us guessed what that would take. In retrospect, at least, his loved ones were totally with him for his dying but if I had to do it again, with what I know now, I would do it differently.

Thank you for your very thoughtful words.

Comment by Dianne in Nevada on May 25, 2012 at 2:10pm

Beautiful words, Carol.  Yes, to unconditional love ... and I did labor with my heart. 

Comment by Ccdague on May 25, 2012 at 11:11am

Amen to that. When we have our children we labor with our bodies. When we watch a loved one die we labor with our hearts.

VOLUNTEER Comment by Supa Dupa Fresh on May 25, 2012 at 7:48am

It IS love but man it's hard sometimes, isn't it?