I don't know where to begin. So I guess I'll fill everyone in. My name is Andy, I'm 30 yrs old. I'm also 29 weeks pregnant. I have a 13 n 3 yr old daughter. My son got his angel wings Oct 18,2013. My husband and I got great news in Jan that we are expecting again. It had been def a stressful time for us since we both were trying to figure out how to continue as parents yet grieve for the child we wanted so much. Then the great news came and it was non stop at the docs. High risk, different tests. But with each test came more great news. The beginning of May we got the last bit of great news we needed. No cardiac issues and we are def having a healthy little boy. Then we get better news, finally the house we wanted in the country was ours to rent. For the great price in a beautiful country setting, getting to move forward with life... We started to move in and had done a good bit. The second day as we were supposed to move some more, sadly my husband got his angel wings. He was 32 yrs old n we just celebrated his 33 birthday. I am doing the best I can to continue with family life. It's not easy and everyone keeps saying that I must keep it together for our kids n I can not cry because of our son. I know that I must stay strong for our children, but at the same time I must grieve as well. I know that people are just trying to help with there kind words. But for me nothing said can help ease this pain I feel. I feel like it takes time, and the truth of the matter is I'll never get over this loss. I lost my soul mate, and trust me I have had my fair share of losers. This man, my husband is the one for me... He is amazing. It saddens me that people even have said oh he'll send someone ur way. I'm just looking for wisdom from those who have a idea of what I'm going thru. Everyone's loss is different even if we all lost our spouse. We each have a one of a kind of love. I can honestly say it's not day by day for me... It's min by min. I need help, but what kind of help... I don't know either... Am lost and confused. Any bits of wisdom, would help in more ways than u think. Thank you!!