It's been a little over 4 years since my Husband died of cancer. He was my soul mate and best friend for 31 years. It has been a rough journey going on without him. I have made many changes to my life and I finally feel like I am going to be alright. I am much stronger than I ever thought I was. I still feel the loneliness but not all the time like in the beginning of this journey. My constants have been my 2 Daughters and my Grandson. They are the most important people in my life. This March I was blessed with a Granddaughter from my youngest Daughter. My Granddaughter is truly a miracle. My Daughter was told years ago that she could never have children. She became pregnant right before the breakup of a 8 year relationship. Although the father of my Granddaughter is not going to be a presence in his Daughters life (his choice), my family has rallied around my Daughter and Granddaughter. There is so much love. They are both living with me and I had the privilege to be able to share the journey of the pregnancy and delivery with my Daughter. As soon as my Granddaughter was born, I have felt the presence of my late Husband. He is here with us. I feel him and it brings me peace. Although I will never fully understand why my Husband had to leave so early, I truly believe that he had a hand in bringing my Granddaughter to us. His Grandson was his everything and he was the best Papa. Now he has a Granddaughter to watch over.