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This past May 3rd, was the 4 year mark. Four years since my world blew apart. I've been reading the comments posted on this web site and my tears started flowing. It is hard to contain them because I have been where most of these precious people have been. I know the shock, I know the anger, I know the pain, and I know the struggle of having to move on. Every morning I knew the realization that I would not see my Gregory's face nor hear his voice calling me his baby...and still I placed one foot in front of the other. It has gotten easier. Lord knows, getting to this point has been rough. I no longer wear my "happy face" mask...found that it didn't conceal the turmoil in my spirit and the sadness prevailed anyway. I have learned that happiness comes in "moments" and I have learned to appreciate them. A good friend told me that losing Greg would be my cross I must bare. Boy, he wasn't kidding.
So, life goes on....and for that, I am grateful. Didn't think I could say that a few years ago. I have done a lot of things I didn't think I could have done a few years ago....I have found a job that I love.....I have remarried a wonderful man....have starting enjoying the little hobbies and events of life that I hid from previously. Yes, life does go on. Yes, the pain will lessen...and yes, you will begin to live again instead of just existing. Hope this gives someone out there a little glimmer of hope....let me just go on to say, it helps having a great support system, a loving family and friends, and a loving God. If not for my faith, and the knowledge that I will one day see Greg again...