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5-1-5-0
Dierks Bentley has a song out now called 5-1-5-0. Normally I wouldnt know this. I am not a huge country music fan. I like country music and I sure as hell wouldnt turn down a chance to see Tim McGraw in some tight fitting jeans but when I am driving I usually listen to CD's or a rock station. For some reason, the radio station in the truck is stuck on a country station. And I mean stuck, it wont move off of US 99. All of my pre-set stations are gone. When I try and reprogram them, they automatically go to US 99. And this song 5-1-5-0 is on constantly. Everytime I get in that truck that song is playing. I am taking this as a sign.
My husband was a huge country music fan. He wore the cowboy boots, he wore the cowboy hat. He took me to Nashville for our honeymoon for Petes sake. (although I did manage to persuade him to head to Memphis after a couple of days) Beale Street and Printers Alley much more my speed. LOL. He tried to foster a love of country music in our daughter by buying her a Garth Brooks CD at the age of two. I countered by getting her Toys in the Attic by Aerosmith. We both lost the musical debate with her as she is firmly entrenched in screamo and punk music now.
As for why I think the radio is stuck on US 99, is that Keiths ashes are normally in the backseat of the truck with one of his cowboy hats. I took his ashes out shortly before Fathers Day and have not returned them back to the truck. They are still in my kitchen. I think this is his way of saying put me back in my truck! I blame widow brain for why I have not done this yet. Most days I am lucky to get out of the house with both shoes on, much less carry a box of ashes with me. So tonight after running errands and doing family stuff all day and hearing that damn song for the umteenth time I have taken his ashes and put them right in front of the door. Tomorrow morning they will go back to their righful place in the backseat of the truck.
Why not do it now you say? Well my front light burned out and its dark outside, and with my luck being Friday the 13th and that stupid song going nonstop in my head, I would trip and fall and then the ashes would be all over the front yard.
Thats the making of a good old fashioned country song right there. LOL
Fingers crossed that once he is back in his righful place I can go back to listening to something other then a song named after a physchiatric hold. LOL
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Comment by Jody on July 22, 2012 at 6:20pm -
This morning the florescent lights in the kitchen wouldn't go on. Now they are fine. Good thing, because I never learned how to change them and wasn't in the mood to learn. Maybe Jerry was just saying good morning.
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Comment by bad ass widow on July 22, 2012 at 2:54pm -
Its been a week now and I think Keith is finally done messing with the radio. Spent the first couple of days going back and forth between country and spanish and then he threw in a all talk station for good measure LOL. I have been able to re-set my stations and as a concession on my part, the first one is US99. I have also reloaded my CD player just in case.
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Comment by kimkirt (KK) on July 16, 2012 at 10:22am -
I will now think of you each time I hear that song. I listen to quite a mix, hopping all over. I truly love classic rock the best, but a lot of that makes me think of Steve, so will switch to country as well. I enjoyed this post! Hugs.
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Comment by Suz on July 15, 2012 at 2:27pm -
Very clever. Very touching. I didn't know what 5150 was though I have done many. We just called them "therapeutic holds." Thanks, Amy!
Hugs,
Suz
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Comment by Sherbear on July 15, 2012 at 10:57am
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So, what's on the radio now? Inquiring minds want to know! This is a great story! Thxs for sharing :)
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Comment by Joyce on July 14, 2012 at 8:48pm -
Oh Amy, enjoyed the story! I'm also glad you waited for 14th. Maybe once Keith realizes he is there for a while you'll get more stations back. It might take as long as you had him out of the truck.
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Comment by Dawn- Clouds Mum on July 14, 2012 at 7:20pm -
Amy thanks for the story. It sounds so familiar. My Keith had country or jazz and swing music on all the time. Since he died 18 months ago all except the CD player that was beside his bed in the lounge room have stopped working and that one only works for his music and not mine. Oh well, just don't listen to music often here any more as we had very different tastes, just like you and your Keith.
I am glad you waited to replace his ashes in the truck until the 14th as like you I would have had visions of falling and scattering those ashes everywhere.
My car has not been washed in some considerable time, but two weeks ago I washed it as it has now been sold and I am to get a new one. There are so many memories that I don't need bound up in that car that it was time to let go of the past and move forward. That was the car we used for all the hospital trips for the last four years of his life and was the car that brought him home for the very last time ..... As I no longer need the larger car it is time it went to where it is needed more and my new car will become a part of my new life. When something is bound up in the sadder memories of life I believe that there are times to let it go and try to build a little more of my new life. I still carry the memory of us together in the car for that last journey in my heart so I am not leaving Keith behind, just the family car.
(((HUGS))) Dawn
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Comment by DonnaReid on July 14, 2012 at 4:41pm -
WOW Amy! My husband use to take a certain route in the park every evening looking for deer. Every now and then I take him and the truck down that route and we "talk". He also washed that truck every week even in the winter! My childred just look at the truck in the garage and shake their heads saying "Dad would not be happy with the way the truck looks" I tell them they are welcome to wash it anytime they want! I bet Keith and Reid are good friends up there or on the other side or where ever they may be....I just hope Reid doesn't get any ideas from Keith about messing with the radio.I left his country stations as they were but I do not listen to them. I tried it once....never realized how sad they were! I don't need anymore sadness!! :)
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Comment by bad ass widow on July 14, 2012 at 3:25pm
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Donna 5150 is a term for a phsychatric hold. I think Keith has chosen that song to remind me that he can still drive me crazy. LOL. I have returned him to his place in the backseat of the trunk, but the man is still wanting more from me I think. I now have 2 radio stations to pick from US 99 and a spanish station. Apparantly he is still holding a grudge. In the hopes of reviving my other stations, I have promised to go and wash the truck which is something he did every weekend and I admit I havent done in a really, really, really long time, and then take him on a route that he would take every weekend morning to check for deer. Hopefully this will redeem me. LOL
As far as selling the truck that has crossed my mind too. If this is his way of showing his displeasure now, I cant imagine what tricks he would come up with. I have toyed with the idea of taking a small amount of ashes and sewing them under one of the seats. LOL
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Comment by Renee on July 14, 2012 at 3:10pm -
Amy, you are probably right about the radio, I have had a few experiences with the radio and lights.
When I went to the medium she explained that electrical items are a good way for our love ones to
communicate with us because they are a way for them to transfer their energy. I dig it and love when
it happens. Hugs
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