I don't know where to begin... I lost my husband almost 2 years ago and I find myself still in shock most days. My husband and I had been together almost 4 years, but married only 5 days yes that's not a typo 5 Days, he collapsed during his nightly run. It was the best and worst week of my life. We have no children, we were just starting our lives.
I can't help but feel like his immediate family didn't really recognize me as his wife because of the short time. But I'm his wife and he was my whole life. We moved 4 hours north of our families and as far as I'm concerned he was my only family. We spent every holiday with his family, we were all so close even during the funeral and weeks after, UNTIL L.J.'s HR called and informed me that his dad was soul beneficiary, LJ didn't have time to change, as he was only at work 1 day for two weeks because of the wedding he had written himself a note to change it. I wasn't worried when I got that phone call I knew how close we were as a family I figured they would do the right thing.
I WAS WRONG! See Lj was the breadwinner while I was finishing nursing school, I only worked part time, making very little during school. I was forced to pay for a 850$ mortgage, propane and that was 700$ a pop, I started selling things to pay for other things, His parents watched me struggle and never even offered to help, I had to sell my house and open an estate to pay off the credit card that paid for our wedding, again they didn't offer.
I gave them everything they asked for of his, never even questioned it, I mean it is his parents. Don't get me wrong I don't care about the money because LJ gave me the best gift and that was his heart, but I lost everything my husband, my future, my home, and my heart. They received almost 80K and never offered a penny? Am I wrong for feeling jaded and hurt by this, I mean I was his wife and if he would have had time and things were reversed, I would not have hesitated to give them money, I guess that's where we differ.
On top of this they ordered a headstone and never asked my opinion and then when it arrived they never told me, it was when I visited his place of rest which is two hours from here , about 10 minutes from his parents house like they requested and I did not contest. All the things that they had to have sits in their garage even the toy chest I wanted to go to his niece, just sits there. Again am I wrong to be jaded and hurt. They don't talk to me as much, mainly because I haven't called because I don't know what to say to them because I want to tell them why I don't call, but out of respect for my husband I say nothing.
AM I WRONG?
Thank you for listening.