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My husband passed away suddenly from asthma on January 5 2015. I don't know if I'm totally  crazy or if it is normal but some days I feel like I'm losing my mind. I make stupid mistakes, forget things, have a hard time talking like I have to stop to think about what I'm trying to say. Sometimes I even have to think about where I'm going when driving and have to try to remember how to get there even though I have been there before. This has never happened to me before I feel stupid and like I'm nuts losing my mind. Please tell me this is normal I hope someone can help me please

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Comment by Jordan Taylor on September 2, 2015 at 4:35am
Thanks for all the input :) I have noticed that if I take a day or two and just relax and take time for myself it helps a lot. I still sometimes stumble my words or have a hard time thinking about what I'm trying to say
Comment by STLGIRL on September 2, 2015 at 1:55am
This post opened my eyes up that I'm not getting alzheimers at 57. Thank you. Thank you.
Comment by Bonnie on August 20, 2015 at 8:06am
Some days I function fairly well, some are a complete washout. Yesterday was one of those. I felt completely overwhelmed. I'm hoping today will be better but so far I haven't moved out of my chair. At least if I am doing nothing I am not doing anything stupid. I am living as a British poet once said where an old world is gone and the new one waiting to be born. I don't know how long I will have to wait.
Comment by BEC on August 20, 2015 at 5:35am

Yesterday I had fed the cat and was busy making dinner when the cat came to me and started meowing like she hadn't been fed. I looked at her and said I just fed you go away, well she didn't. She just sat there and looked up at me a meowed again. Finally I looked down at her dish and found the problem., I had sat the unopened can of food down on the floor for her and put her dish in the refrigerator! No wonder she was looking at me like I was "CRAZY"!!! So hang in there your not alone !!!

Comment by k2k9 on August 17, 2015 at 5:24am

Those experiences are a completely normal part of grief.  I told my friends at work, "The old Kathy is gone.  Don't expect me to have the mind like a steel trap anymore, that's overwith."  I used to be the one they all came to, had my act together like no one else.  Now, my brain is completely fried, and I feel like a crazy person, I make stupid mistakes, can't find words, can't express myself, and forget and misplace things.  I never misplaced a thing in my LIFE before.  It's extremely disconcerting.  "How could anyone lose their glasses?"  I would always think to myself.  Now?  Me.  Yep.  Be assured this IS normal.  Hope you are doing ok.  I'm sorry for your loss. 

Comment by Callie2 on August 16, 2015 at 1:02pm
Your son is right. Just wait. For almost two years, I would forget to close the garage door and my neighbor would call me to remind me. I couldn't figure out how to remove the screens on my enclosed porch to wash the windows--I tried prying them off with a screwdriver, then I would lose the springs. Then I couldn't find the replacements. As I was doing this task this year, I wondered why I had such a hard time. This was the way things were but now my delemias are fewer and farther in between, thank God! Be patient with yourself, it is not permanent, just remember that. Make only decisions that absolutely have to be made right now.
Comment by Bonnie on August 16, 2015 at 12:43pm
It is just past a year for me and I still feel like my brain is not fully functioning. I can't remember anything! I have told people to just bear with me as I am brain damaged and i really think I am. I am sometimes paralyzed with simple choices and have a hard time reading or concentrating on anything. When I try to talk about making changes my son just insists that I need to just stay put, I donm't need to be creating chaos at my age--as in moving from the house. He has been really good to me in many ways and he is who I do see the most of but it is clear that he doesn't understand that my mind is just not working very well a lot of the time. And when I do think about it I tend to cry. The worst is that I put things away and then can't find them or have any memory of what I might have done with them.
Comment by breistl on August 14, 2015 at 10:24pm
Widow's brain. It's been 4 months and I am literally all over the place. You're not crazy or stupid, just grieving. I can totally relate to Frank's experience.
Comment by MaryJ on August 14, 2015 at 1:44pm

This is perfectly normal.  I still get so immersed in my grief that I often forget where I park my car.



Comment by Frank on August 13, 2015 at 9:33pm

I don't know.  Susan passed unexpectedly in her sleep Dec 2012 and since then I have successfully maneuvered through the system for Social Security, the legal laws of CO, planning a funeral, donating her to Science Care, herding the cats for a celebration of life, taken care of numerous financial problems, successfully thwarted two suicide attempts by my youngest son (43), wrestled with the officials at the local National Cemetery, fought the contractor to a win over our addition, managed to lower my mortgage to just #309/month,  finally completed the last payout from her estate, and yet... I cannot make a simple decision to purchase an antenna, tripod tower, and coax!   I was remarking about it last night to my grief group and told them, that I thought part of the problem was that she was not here for me to discuss the expense with her.  We'd agreed while dating that if either was going to spend more than $50 that we would discuss it first.  Worked for 35 years,  Now I'm alone and as I was talking last night, discovered that I was afraid to spend the money.  With the last disbursement from her estate fund, I could close the books on the last thing remaining of her estate.  That was deeply disturbing and I cried sitting in the attorney's parking lot...Then, I discovered that while I'm now "Free"  I was terribly afraid and insecure about the future....  This is hell on earth.... Frank

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