I went for a bike ride today in the historic district of my town. I went with a meetup group called Casual Bikers, which is exactly what I am. I have never met a hill I actually like, and this group goes about avoiding them in a nice manner. It was as beautiful a Connecticut day as you can have. Clear, dry, warm but not too warm. We have had tons of rain so the grass and the trees are a brilliant emerald green, while the spring flowers are at their peak, in every bright color you can think of. It was a nice time. When it was over, and I started to head out I decided that I really wanted to sit outside like a human being and enjoy a nice beer and some lunch. I dithered because I hate that question, at the host station, you know that question, "just you?". Yeah, dammit it's just me and I deserve to sit out on the patio with the couples and the families. I like to sit at the bar, but this time I will take that table for two over there in the sun. I don't know about you, but I love those stupid little hamburgers called sliders. I know it's the same thing, as a grownup burger but I just like them. Of course, they are to "share". What do you do when, you just don't have anyone to share with at the moment. I decided to get them anyway, take half home, no big deal I guess, but it made me think again, when I just wish I could have a lunch and a beer without thinking so much. I have been doing this dining by myself thing for a while and I wish I could get used to it. I wish appetizers came in one person size. I wish Bill had not died, I wish I had someone to eat lunch with today on this beautiful day after a really good bike ride.