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Autumn
I love this time of year, the changing leaves, the smells, the storms, and the dampness in the air. There’s a taste in the air, a taste of harvest apples and pumpkins, of coming snows, and of cold wet winds. You can hear it walking through the leaves, in the trees whispering and sometimes shouting winter is coming time to slow down, time to think of things that have been. It is a time to reflect on the changes in life and a time to remember the richness of what has been given.
We married in autumn a beautiful day twenty five years ago in November. My tall sweet husband looking lovingly into my eyes, his brimming with tears of joy and awe, so wanting to protect me from the winters to come, embraces me and my children. So much hope, so many fears to overcome and it all comes together in the thrill of this new life.
We celebrated our marriage again just five years ago, declaring our love of our Lord, each other and our children in a renewal of vows. Mark’s body broken now but his love and desire to be there for me and for the family was even deeper than 20 years earlier.
Then winter came, with it the lonely sound of the wind and rain and the smell of the cold musty dampness. The colors now muted all life seemed to be gone. But at its bleakest came hope again, Christmas and a new year--a new beginning.
Mark is now with me not as my husband in this life, but my soul mate in heaven ever reminding me to live; to enjoy every season life has to offer and to not be afraid. As a walk through this autumn I see the beauty and the richness of my life, of what has been, what is, and what may yet be to come. I breath in the sweet cool air I am living and there is always hope in life.
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Comment by Lisa ( Marielee) on October 28, 2012 at 12:05am
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Lori - So beautifully stated ... We married in Autumn also and sometimes I feel the memories crowding in around this time . 2 years for me but I am starting to enjoy this season and look for the blessings instead of focusing on the loss. Sending you hugs & peace. Lisa
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Comment by Susan B on October 27, 2012 at 10:30pm -
thanks, Lori, well said.
"Hope in life".
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Comment by missinghugs (fran) on October 27, 2012 at 4:17pm
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Your post is beautiful, Lori. In my heart I know my husband would be saying those exact words to me....live....enjoy every season....not be afraid. He wasn't ready to go....but God had different plans for him.
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Comment by Lori on October 27, 2012 at 11:55am -
Thank you all for your encouragement, kindness, and help you all are helping me find my hope.
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Comment by AEDforever (Ali) on October 27, 2012 at 11:17am -
that was lovely lori
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Comment by LaurieR on October 27, 2012 at 10:06am -
Lori, thank goodness for faith. It lifts you up and you put it so nicely.
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Comment by hendrixx2 on October 27, 2012 at 6:53am -
Hi Lori,
This is so poignant and inspiring, you are reminding us that through our joys, our fears, and yes, even our loss, the change in seasons can remain beautiful; thank you for this, as I too feel those winds of change and uncertainty, I am somewhat able to remember that it is only right, yes, the seasons must change but there is always ''...hope in life...'' , thank you...
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Comment by bj628(Bonnie) on October 26, 2012 at 8:00pm -
Lori, a beautiful post, Thank you for sharing. I do like having 4 seasons, Fall with the beautiful changing colors and the crisp leaves,
Yes Mark is your soul mate and I know so proud of you, looking out for his devoted wife and loving family.
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Comment by janet on October 26, 2012 at 6:05pm -
Lori, this is just an inspiring post. I never looked at Autumn that way. Thank you for giving me a new perspective on viewing life.
Wishing you Peace and Hope...
Hugs.
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Comment by recent loss(Ron) on October 26, 2012 at 4:52pm -
Lori this a beautiful post,and you have lifted my spirits with you wonderful words of encouragement.
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