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I'm not sure if I believe in signs or not, but last night the strangest thing happened. To start with this past week has been getting more and more difficult for me. Not really sure why, but then nothing has made alot of sense to me for the past year from my husbands illness to this grief journey.
So last night I was just sitting in my livingroom and crying. I looked out the window and saw one of the biggest hawks I've ever seen sitting in the tree in my front yard. Now I've seen hawks around here before but never so close and never on such a low branch. After a little bit I noticed I had stopped crying but I was still watching him. Soon he flow from that limb to the rail on the front porch, I still just sat and watched. All of a sudden I thought how my husband would of gotten such a kick out of seeing this hawk,( see he loved watching the birds out the front window so much his chair sits right next to the bay window). Just then the hawk started flying in and out of the white post on the front porch, then he would land for a second or two then start flying again. He did this for almost 30 minutes, I never moved and the really strange thing is my dogs never moved or barked at this bird once. They bark and try to climb in the window when ever anything gets near are yard or porch.
If I believed in signs I could think of this a my husbands way of distracting me....visiting me....or at least occupying me long enough to stop my tears (which it did). If I don't believe in signs then this was just some dumb bird doing things that are very out of character for it's species.
So for my own comfort and simply because it warms my heart I've decided to stop over thinking it,
just except that wonderful things can happen to help us on our journey!
Thank you honey for still being my knight in shining armor,
for still being able to make me feel better when no one else can.
Love you always