Since I became a widow I keep stumbling across novels where the main character is a widow or widower. They draw me in and hold me captive because I'm trying to glean a fragment of hope that I'm normal, what I've been doing, thinking, feeling the past few years is what grieving looks like. The fictional characters seem to have it a bit easier and there's usually a happy ending. Still waiting for that rainbow, but until then I can live vicariously through a well written story.
When I read Brooke Shields' book about her life with her mother and the biography of Steve Jobs I had two different reactions. Neither book was really about grief, but it was really painful to read when they started to describe how cancer came into their lives. I couldn't finish Brooke's book because it was filled with the same kinds of emotions I felt while my husband was dying. Reading about Steve Jobs was a bit easier because the author wrote about Steve's feelings and emotions about his cancer. That brought me some peace. Maybe that's how Danny felt too, he was just wasn't able to talk about it.
I'm finally reading Saturday Night Widows by Becky Aikman. A friend recommended it a few years back but I wasn't ready. It really reminds me so far of the purpose of this website, regional group meetings, Camp Widow, and how powerful it is to share the messy thoughts and feelings with other people who understand.
Your turn: What books have you found helpful on your journey? Please share them with me.