The 29th of each month Greg and I would celebrate our “monthly anniversary” we would put everything aside (or at least try to) and dress up and go to our favorite Mexican restaurant and see a movie afterwards.
Greg really tried to make this day special each month and being the romantic person that he was, I loved it.
I loved how he loved me as Christ loves the church. I loved how we taught each other about sacrificial love. I love the love we had for each other.
Yesterday I guess something just clicked in my widow brain. Those of you who are widowed will understand this next statement.
You know something but it doesn’t fully “click”.
For 30 months I have written a post on this day observing our monthly anniversary. Another month I observe it alone without Greg physically here with me. I’ve described or at least attempted to describe why this day is important to me.
Ok just yesterday did it “click”— “31″ monthly anniversaries. Alone.
31 seems like so many yet so little at the same time.
Until yesterday the number (itself) of monthly anniversaries alone wasn’t really clicking. Just the days come each month and they are hard. Then the next day is another day on this journey.
The “number” itself really only clicked in observance of how long it’s been since we lost Greg. That’s a whole other blog post. (11/9).
Today as I struggle with the motivation to get up and go about my day. I find it very ironic that I started the first of several new projects for the fcbk page.
I did not “plan” it this way, but I started a weekly series called Memory Monday, relating how memories we share with our beloveds keep them alive in our hearts and asking others to share one of their favorite memories of them and their beloved on the fcbk pg.
And one of my favorite memories is the times we celebrated our monthly anniversary.
Funny how God works!
And my Greg would love that today started a new project in helping others.
Here’s to my beloved Greggie & to “celebrating us”.
And I Thought I Loved You Then MY Love.
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