Here I am December 16th 2018.. IN June I finally Got Rid of the wicked one out of my house. and had the Entire upstairs Decontaminated. and bought myself a New bed. I am Now averaging 4 hours a night of sleep after almost 4.5 years of 1 hour a night. I Finally opted to take My vacation time in Augest.
out in the Ozarks of MO. it was amazing. however I cut my 20 days vacation short 10 days, when my work partner called that his mom may Die Before the weekend. I drove 2 days to get home to Cover for him at work. His mom Died that sunday .. I got back monday and was able to attend her Funeral on Tuesday.
Needless to Say He has not returned back to work as of this date. the last week of November he was diagnosed with a Brain Tumor.. 1 week later I took off from work. to be with his sister and GF he underwent 19 hours of rain surgery to remove an Orange size Tumor... since He has Undergone 2 more 6 hour operations. To plug a few air leaks, and drain Fluid. he has still not awaken. October 12th 2018 My Father passes away... the crazyness does Not stop. I am writing this while here in Florida. Helping mom out. I took 3 weeks vacation for 2018.. My boss says If I take vacation do not expect to have a job when I get back... more stress... My Blood sugar the past 2 days has been over 300. No Idea what my BP is. I have determined that I will continue my Life alone. Its so hard to date in your Late 50's now that dad is gone. My mother Now "GETS IT". and is beginning to understand what I am Going through dad was 83 OCT 22 would have been their 59th wedding anniversary. its been cold and raining here.. so No pool or beach time.. I am So Freaking Bored... Ohhhh BTW the friend 800 miles away I did meet... wonderful lady however she looked older than my Mom who is 80.... I feel like I have been Ghosting her on Facebook. however truth is all in the above.. I have just been a workaholic and with Everything happening in my life. I have had no Time For facebook. Taking a few mins to type this blog. and then I am going back to sleep....... almost 5 years later.. I still cry myself to sleep. NO it does Not Get any easier.... Im still looking for a Companion and I will Only date a Jewish widow..... Good Night time for me to crawl back under my Rock. I wish everyone a Happy Holiday Season and a New Year.... BTW I inherited a car from my dad. so as Of Dec 29th I will be driving up the eax=st Coast back to NJ from Florida.... I am going stir crazy here......