I hate it hate it hate it. I do not like this being a widow.
I have spent the day taking down the few Christmas decorations and the little tree I bought. In the south it's supposed to be bad luck to take it down before New Years Day. I'll take my chances this year.
Hubby always did the tree and put everything up afterwards. I miss him so much. His teasing grin, his gentle touch, his oh-so-tight hugs when I needed comforting. He's not here to comfort me during these missing him episodes.
That's enough tears for now. Eyes quit watering please. Throat quit tightening up please. Pull it together,woman.
I will however have blackeyed peas and collard greens on New Years Day. I'll have some ham,too but not the hog jowl.UGH. Blackeyed peas are supposed to represent coins and collard greens represent cash,hog jowl is for good luck. I'll pass on that one too. Although I have had enough bad luck.....
I also managed to clean out one of his drawers . I hope one of my nephews can use some socks. I moved his tray table from beside the sofa and put the end table back. I moved his waste can from that side too. I moved his ball caps from the hat rack in the hall to the display rack in the office. I moved his jackets to the closet. One of the caps still smells like him. The coats do not. I moved his bathrobe from the bathroom into his closet. It still smells like him. Such a comfort.
I've still got a lot to do but I'm going to take my time. The office needs tackling. So much paperwork we've accumulated over our 44 years. I know a lot needs to be shredded but what do I need to keep? I need to set up some new file folders for me so I can keep up with taxes,mortgage and bills.
2014 please be a good year.