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Feeling a little stressed this month....December
It may also co-incide with the time of year..Christmas.
House is a mess...what's new...sometimes its ok but othertimes it gets on top of me....
I am planning a 10 day camping trip with my 4wd club after Christmas with my camper which I have used 3 times since Craig died. It is a moving trip so will be hard work and kids don't want to do it...they would rather camp somewhere for 10 days and enjoy. So there lack of enthusiasm doesn't really help.
I need to do some minor alterations to camper and ute to make things easier for us....and get a major service to ensure I can go at least 3000km without any issues.....oh and find an extra 5 x 20ltr jerry cans to carry extra fuel as my ute is a petrol guzzler and won't make it far on a tank pulling a trailer :(
Have to find someone to look after or feed puppy for 10 days.....I know someone will feed him but not sure if anyone will give him much attention or company :( my bad for getting a dog...I knew this would happen.
I have the boys turning 13 in 10 days so have a pool party arranged for about 25 13 year olds...what was I thinking....
Work activity has increased this month....ummm shouldn't we be winding down. But no reports, business plans all due next week. Booking me into courses and meetings when I only work 3 days a week doesn't help me as I have no time in the office. and Going on holiday doesn't help meaning I need to get things done in advance.
Who's going to look after the kids while I work....vacation care = $.....but I will still be in front it I work - ran out of holidays anyway and holidays without pay is not a good option.
Craig (hubby) not here for Christmas :(.....well that wasn't going to change but still it's in my mind.
Don't think I got this anxious before but I notice I tend to get myself worked up a little more these days....and then overstress myself....
Sigh...just feeling sorry for myself....at least the christmas tree is up...a step up from last year :)