A while back I was able to write my feelings and emotions, my thoughts, my sadness.....on here some but on a FB site and in a journal.
I have been feeling very lost for 4 or 6 weeks or so.....probably longer. I am actually forcing myself to type this in tonight. I just have felt empty and no urge to express or communicate.
I do have a couple friends that are very supportive. One is a widow, about the same length of time as me, that is an old school acquaintance. I was communicating with them kind of regular, and it helped. But I have not reached out to them in several weeks. I guess I just feel like I sound like a broken record, saying the same things and not really improving. So I have been under the radar and not using these resources.
Maybe it is a phase???....I dunno. I certainly do not want to remain in this phase. I don't want to turn in on myself and shut out the world. I am not trying to do that. I just struggle to communicate my feelings anymore (with others). Maybe others go through this phase too.