I lost my love of 31 years one month ago yesterday to AML Leukemia. I thought yesterday was tough but today I received a call from hubby's best friends wife letting me know that Hospice said it would be just day for Cecil and that he was asking for me. I should have been to see them a lot sooner but I was only thinking about myself, lately. It was good to see them and to talk about my man David. They were friends for 32 years. He has been a joy in our live for many years. This is all so hard!David and I didn't talk about death it was not on our plan. We spent the last 6 months away from our children and grandchildren at Mayo Clinic in Rochester Mn. having a stem cell transplant. We thought it was all was well and then infection set in. God was my saving grace during Davids Illness but I now realize that I have not called on him since I lost David. I guess I had better work on that. I just feel so empty with out the other half of me.