There was an amazing fundraiser for a derby girl this past weekend.
A lot of my derby girls were there -either in a skater or a official capacity.
The whole thing was to raise money for a derby girl who contracted a virus, ended up in ICU and lost a leg, and some fingers. Her house needed to be retrofitted.
I wanted to go. I normally would have moved mountains to go.
I couldn't. I couldn't because she SURVIVED and I didn't know if I'd be able to handle being there, watching everyone cheering for her and excited for her and her life.
I don't wish her death. I am happy for that family that they aren't going to deal with what I am going through.
But she survived. And Mark didn't. And I am hurting because of that.
I wish, with all my heart I could have supported them. I"ll donate some money to the cause, but I couldn't handle being there and being there alone... it would have killed me.
Why? Why coudn't he have survived? Why couldn't he have beaten the odds?
Anyone who wants to donate:
http://www.facebook.com/events/442858695767990/ this is the event that happened. I'm going to put some money into it...and send her a "I'm happy for your family" card.